開心shopping

看小棠在日本城shopping，就知我們小小年紀已有購買慾！
上星期night shopping, 爸媽和我去玩具反斗城逛逛。本來只是看奶粉和尿片有否特價，但看着看着，我被一輛玩具車吸引了，坐上去還懂得向前推進，令媽媽雀躍不已！當然，下一步就是爸媽商討應否買了。經過一番比較，最後都買了，他們想我推着車車學走路。
回家，媽媽急不及待已切好車車看我表現，但我就興趣一般，玩了一會又轉去爬爬了，氣得爸爸說下次買東西給我一定要三思。

晨曦

現正澳洲冬季，日短夜長。但我改不了早睡早起的習慣，每早五六點就吵醒媽媽，她通常說：天未光呀！給我多睡一會啦！但今早我叫醒全家和我看日出，爸爸興起，就拍下了晨曦中的陳家啦！

唉！我病了！

我九個半月以來第一次病了。現正流感期但我並沒有四周圍去玩，我只是在家看着我喜愛的Baby Einstein ，忽然下午開始留鼻水，媽媽心知不妙，到晚上開始發熱，渾身不舒服，就只有大哭。唉！跟着就嘔吐大作，弄得媽媽一身也是嘔吐物，難得她沉着應戰，就這樣一邊哄我睡，一邊手拿探熱針坐着一晚。幸好，早上精靈點，才肯吃退燒葯。下午看醫生說我被病毒感染，不用吃抗生素，但要媽媽小心照顧，有什麼變化就立刻求医云云。媽媽不敢鬆懈，繼續努力了一晚。今天，我好多了，小了鼻水也沒有那麼不舒服，可以玩玩了。但媽媽今早要返工，下午見到她時，她的樣子還比我殘，但知我好D，也十分開心。

母親節快樂

今年第一次和媽媽慶祝母親節，不知有什麼節目呢？其實，爸媽這兩星期很忙，常坐在電腦前，媽媽說：爸爸趕功課，叫我乖乖自己玩，我也很合作不去打擾他們。現在，我也忙着学企企，跌倒不知多少次，媽媽說我快成功了。
媽媽也似很忙，常在家走來走去，一會兒在厨房、轉眼又去了露台，就是冇時停，有時下午她會和我玩玩下睡着，大人也真怪！
明天是母親節，祝各位母親大人母親節快樂，細路仔聽教聽話！

遙遙九個月大了！

話甘快遙遙已九個月大，做父母的覺得時光飛逝！感謝主，給這小妮子健康活潑！讓大家看看她無時停的樣子吧！

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企企

上星期爸媽帶我去Darling Harbour行街街，我不大喜歡只坐車仔，要媽媽給我企企，我雖只有九個月，但也很有自己的主見，喜歡自己企企，扶住跳跳，總之冇時停，弄得媽媽手瓜起！媽媽說去半天街街，她累得似打完仗！

Finger food!

我一向對食物興趣也不大，近來吃完飽飽後也偶然會嘔吐大作，弄得媽媽既擔心也麻煩她弄乾淨衣服和地方。去看midwifeEE，她說我不是餐餐嘔就不是問題，爸爸則說媽媽應改進厨藝了！所以媽媽每次餵我也是誠惶誠恐的，在街更怕。
今天，我在食的方面有一特破，媽媽給我自己在high chair 上吃Finger food (麵包)，雖弄得滿地麵包碎，但很好玩，我也學用牙仔”妹妹”吓！
PS (我有兩隻門牙啦!)

到此一遊

藍山之旅-我穿得像一些熊仔

Kent & Mary 之木

記得2005年一行八人的北海道美瑛之旅，轉眼差不多兩年了。來了澳洲後，旅行就是返HK。今次Easter，我們和弟兄姊妹一同往Blue mountain 旅行。沿途看見大片草源、牛、馬、羊，然後我看見兩棵樹，給我鈎起了美瑛拼布之路中Kent及Mary之木。記得當天也是時雨時晴，我們在巴士隔着玻璃影窗外景色，到下車後大家撑着傘子”喪影”的情景還歴歴在目。真懷念那次的旅行！

Amazing!

Just looking at how Chloe grows really remind me how wonderful God is!

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AMAZING Words and music by Chris Janz, (© 2004 Chris Janz) SOCAN All rights reserved Used by permission
The morning cold and raining Dark before the dawn could come
How long in twilight waiting Longing for the rising sun
Oh, OhYou came like crashing thunderBreaking through these walls of stone
You came with wide eyed wonderInto all this great unknown
Hush now don’t you be afraid
I promise you I’ll always stayI’ll never be that far away I’m right here with you
You’re so amazing
You shine like the stars
You’re so amazing
The beauty you are
You came blazingRight into my heart
You’re so amazing
You are, You are
You came from Heaven shining Breath of God still fresh on you
The beating heart inside me Crumbled at this one so new
Oh, Oh
No matter where, how far you wander
For a thousand years or longerI will always be there for youRight here with you
I hope your tears are few and fast
I hope your dreams come true at last
I hope you find love that goes on and on and on and on and on
I hope you wish on every star
I hope you never fall too far
I hope this world can see how wonderful you are

悉尼大橋75週年

3月19日是悉尼大橋75歲，所以昨天首次封車給遊人步行！爸媽本擔心人多又要顧及我，爸爸又趕功課，所以打算不去。但一想到25年後若再開放，他倆亦未必能和我一同行，所以還是冒險而行。人是多，但秩序井然，沒有人趕人，爭先趕後，大家也互相幫助，我們這些BB坐車仔，大人們就幫忙抬上落樓梯！在橋上可細看悉尼harbour 的景色，ヌ可拍照，更有人揮動彩帶，好不熱鬧！

兒童天地

自學懂坐後，兩隻手仔自由多了，可探索不同的東西再放入口中詳細分析，媽媽就不大喜歡我每事也用口研究，但有時也拿我沒辨法！ 現在我常在這兒童天地玩，你見有很多cushion，冇錯，因我玩得興起時會忘記平衡而向後跌！

水上飄2

滿以為爸爸趕功課，我可逃過水中特訓，誰知天氣太熱，媽媽堅持要去泳池，唉！我本着大無畏精神再次嘗試，起初仍有點怕，但媽媽掛住傾計，爸爸又忙着苦練，我就在不知不覺下適應下來。身旁的小朋友不停踢水花，都幾有趣，我還嘗試踢踢腳呢！其實，可和爸媽一起玩也不錯呀！(未出發前，我已在家試玩浮板了。)

水上飄

趁着還熱，昨天爸媽和Ken 叔叔一家帶我往泳池練習"水上飄"絕技。上一次在沙灘失敗了，媽媽特意慢慢來，給我試水温，腳踢踢水，起初還好，但她越行越深，我的腳還未懂飄呢！我不由得又哭了。但他們安慰我、哄我，只是不肯離開，我真的很怕，但大庭廣眾，我只好低聲哀鳴，好惨呀，就這樣哭了半小時，媽媽只好抱我沖身換衣，可是我未用過花洒呀，暖水花洒向我，我再也忍不了，大聲哭了，嚇倒其它在更衣室的人，唉！

好不容易換好衣服，我已累得流着兩行眼淚而睡着了，媽媽緊抱我睡，爸爸則繼續練他的水中絕技。他們相約下星期再練，點算呀？

新的工作 2

新的一年，新的開始，我亦開始一份新的工作。來澳洲年多，這已是我第四份工 作了(比在港時還多)。我是一個不愛轉變環境的人，因太愛我的comfort zone，但這一年不停的變，卻叫我更看到神的大能，在每次轉變時，祂都給指引和開路，叫我可勇敢踏前。
現在要照顧遙遙，我只有三個上午(8-12)可工作，這份工很近家，相對就有較長的時間工作了。起初boss 表現得有點mean，但實質是一個關心病人多於賺$的人，這可叫我放心和舒服多了。
感謝主，給我轉變的機會，縱然當中有彷徨和擔心，但祢的信實和不變叫我在轉變中仍有平安和信心！

新年快樂

有心唔怕遲，雖然已是年初二，在此我向大家拜年！
祝各位朋友仔快高長大、健康精靈、活潑可愛、聰明伶俐，聽教聽話！
各位aunt, uncle身體健康、生活愉快、愛主更深，主恩常在！
今年是我第一個農曆新年，身在澳洲，沒有太多的慶祝活動，當然亦沒有利是逗啦！
爸媽特別帶我去唐人街感受一下過年的氣氛，有醒獅，有很多紅色的掛飾，當然亦是人山人海，媽媽為免我吸塵，只好抱着我行。行着行着，看得我眼也花了，回程亦累得睡着了，這就是我的年初一。
小棠、Little Lam、你們第一次逗利是，收入豐富嗎？

情人節晚餐

是曰晚餐：

法式洋葱湯

香煎蝦碌

焗豬柳配鮮桃沙律

薯仔pie

Dessert: Raspberry Souffles

咸蛋超人早餐

新的工作

2007年1月開始一星期三天的半日工作，因路程頗遠，來回要最少2小時，實質工作3小時，時間太趕，但有工作總是好的。到老板問我可想做permanent 時，我又猶疑不決 ，心總想找近一點的。
1月尾真的給我在internet 看到一份離家5-7分鐘腳程的工作，當然第一時間apply，第二天就收到面試的通知，心裏真的興奮，但我沒有告訴Derek，因他定說我心急，另若失敗了也只有自己知罷了！但紙包不了火，我還是告訴他，因我想他和我一同禱告，Derek 說這份工作要作水療的，未必適合我，但我想location 非常適合啊！他說多禱告，專心等候神吧！
專心、等候對我是一個沒完的功課，經神多次磨練仍有欠缺。
終於面試完了，坦白說這不是一個成功的interview! 老板講多過我講，言語間亦非友善，完了叫我回家等……但這工作因我只工作3個早上，所以不用作水療，而薪金亦比之前一份好D。
等了三天deadline day (當中有个weekend)，真的難耐，我不是不停禱告嗎？為何我的心仍無法平靜？還要等嗎？Derek 只輕輕說，你還未學懂，就只有等！ 我真的有點down，一是面對面試失敗，二是面對”專心等待”操練的失敗……
我再次禱告，求主叫我心裏平安，學習順服和謙卑……第二天早上，當我又努力地search 新工時，電話响通知我被offer la! 我當然高興，但我覺得對神不起，是我小信、只看重自己的事，我只有禱告認罪和感恩。
回頭看，神並沒有令我一天缺衣缺食，但我就只是小信！這小小的功課又證明我失敗了，主啊，求你寬恕，我會努力學習！

特餐

移居澳洲年多開始學習這地方不同的飲食文化，因配料比較容易買，所以亦樂於嘗試。看看這早餐和晚餐，味道也不錯呀！(不是天天這樣吃，否則變成澳洲特產)

半歲啦！

不經不覺我已半歲大了，爸媽特別為我制作了我這半年的快樂時光片段與你們共享！

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米糊餐

話說BB4-6個月大就可開始吃固體食物，因營養所需，亦標誌着成長的另一個理程埤。我已25星期，還有一個星期就6個月大。但這幾天，我對食物很有興趣，常眼睩睩地看着爸媽吃東西，晚上又餓醒要吃奶，媽媽覺得是時候給我試吃米糊了。
我第一口吃時，味道怪怪的但也可以，爸爸亦連忙拍下這珍貴的一刻。媽媽看我吃了一口又一口，亦開始放心，心裏亦盤算着下次預備什麼食物。

展望將來

2007年了，來澳洲也一年多了。短短的一年身份卻不停地轉，由新移民、孕婦、媽媽、全職主婦、半職主婦，感覺似在跑步，轉眼已去了下一個景點。雖說澳洲生活節奏慢可享受生活，但我仍覺得生活步伐受個人性格影响。我急性子的性格總叫我停不下來，有了遙遙後加上返工，更忙致頭昏腦脹。身體疲累還可忍受，但精神上的疲乏則叫我乏力，很多時想靜下來休息，但腦子仍不停自己在轉，到靈修時又一片空白。
新的一年，新的開始，盼望我可給腦袋”差差”電，再努力向前！

新年旅行

我的第一個新年，爸媽特別安排了三日兩夜到Forster 旅行，同行還有三個家庭，八個大人三個BB實在大陣象。爸媽帶了很多行李，多得連車子也差點放不下，當然大部份也是我的。
我很開心啊！每樣東西對我來說也很新奇，藍天白雲，風景很美，還有沙灘啊！因我還小，加上太陽很猛，我只可用腳仔試試沙和水，但海水加浪花湧向我，嚇得我哭起來，爸媽笑我膽小鬼，其實其他兩個哥哥姊姊 (分別１歲和11個月)也大哭，所以我們的下水禮失敗了，D大人話改在浴江訓練喎！

聖誕快樂

聽說有一位聖誕老人會給乖的小朋友送禮物，今年是我第一個聖誕節啊！不知他有否預埋我呢？
但爸媽說他們認識一位更厲害的人物，衪在二千多年前來到世界，將一份寶貴的禮物送給每一個人而且並不分乖或曳，衪名叫 - 耶穌，而聖誕節就是為了紀念衪！
話說回來：我想我是乖，我也希望有禮物啊媽媽！ (我放了袜子在床尾呀！)
在此謹祝大家聖誕快樂 !

運動日

為了明年的新挑戰，爸爸返學，媽媽返工，我們一家三口要積極操fit跑步。爸爸話要有健康體柏才可兼顧返工返學，媽媽則要穿回衣服返工所以要減磅，而我就志在陪吓佢地兼吸新鮮空氣，他們都要我這小小教練鞭擦一下。
相中，爸爸就努力跑緊，媽媽就乘機偷懶陪吓我！

郊遊樂

今天天朗氣清，完了祟拜後和教會的uncles , aunties 一同去Watson Bay 郊遊。藍天白雲加上美麗的海景，爸爸當然又忍不住要影我靚樣和拍全家幅。

平起平坐

我終於可以和爸爸媽媽一同坐在飯枱旁啦！當然，飯枱上的食物冇我份，因我仍然只吃奶奶。其實，這亦是我第一次試坐highchair，因為明天晴晴姐姐(大我半年)會來我家，媽媽負責照顧我倆，所以要我幫手試坐，以確保明天睛晴姐姐坐時安全！我明天要乖D，要不然媽媽要照顧兩个BB定必倒瀉籮蚧！

為父的心

作為媽媽，我真的不完全體會為父的心。 上星期在家聽到廖啓智，陳敏兒及張崇德，劉美娟兩對夫婦對失去兒子的網上信息分享，心裏真的很感動，很配服他們對上帝的信心和順服，縱然身處苦難之中仍能靠着神賜的平安和能力繼續服侍人。 他們不約而同地說更深地明白上帝怎樣犧牲自己兒子耶穌來拯救我們，那種傷痛令他們更能體會上帝的愛。 從前，我只專注於耶穌為我這罪人死的偉大和愛，但他們的分享提醒我上帝這位作父親的要犧牲兒子來救我們，那種更震撼的愛。 再看亞伯拉罕為上帝獻以撒，那種信心和順服足以令我這小信的人汗顏。
現在，做了母親就更明白上帝愛兒女的心，要好好教導我的女兒就必須靠着上帝了。
P.s. 感謝公青團友送來問候的”心”

好熱啊

澳洲已經進入夏天，但因為global warming，天氣反常，時冷時熱，令我未能放下冬衣 (媽媽說多穿幾次會抵D ，哈哈！)。 昨天，初嘗炎夏的滋味，38.4 度啊！熱得我想睡。媽媽則興致勃勃地為我試夏衣，到中午我倆最后都不敵熱風，要開冷氣抖抖。
其實，熱風加速了Blue mountain 的bush fire! 看着很多的樹木和動物被大火摧毀，心裏很不舒服！這是天父世界，一切生物是衪手做，唯有求天父保守止息這場bush fire！

爸爸專家

上星期六日一要上課，一直擔心爸爸單獨照顧遙遙。自遙遙出生後，我倆從未分開多過２小時，這三天朝九晚五的分開，真不由得我不擔心。
一早brief 爸爸 bb 的routine、喜好、哭鬧pattern……再準備好所有奶樽、奶咀、尿片、衣服…….(終於明白作媽媽為何喋喋不休)
第一天分開時，心裏真的不捨，反觀BB 就沒有什麼反應。好不容易等到放學，見到BB 時，她只用眼瞄我一下便自己在後座玩。爸爸說BB 整天也很乖，看來我這個媽媽真的過慮了！爸爸還以專家身份表演怎樣和BB作扒扒運動及引BB大笑，真激死！不過看着爸爸和BB bond 得實也是開心的，起碼有人和我分擔下啦！

HO HO HO

還有一个月才是聖誕節，但滿街也佈滿預備聖誕節的禮物和裝飾。今天就給我發現這個瑞士三角朱古力，就影張相送給阿Tai一家啦！

漫天紫花 2

漫天紫花

澳洲已漸漸步入夏天，亦是花朵盛放的時候。星期二的早上，爸爸心血來潮要去影花，所以我們一家就出動，先去麥記吃个全歺，然後往附近的公園取景。漫天的紫色花樹真的很美！爸爸一向慢功出細貨，要有靚相，就要付代價，媽媽為保護我，就只有努力地對抗撲面而來的澳洲特產 – 烏蠅！

三個月大了

我已三個月大了，比細個時叻了(媽媽是這樣說的)。現在日間少睡了，多了和爸媽玩的時間，我也開始依依呀呀地說話回應他們，逗得他們常對着我大笑。但我面對陌生人時就比較害羞，有時還扁咀啊！爸媽說要多帶我返教會和聚會，好叫我認識更多朋友，看來我有很多機會出去玩了！
(知道業嘉EE和石仔叔叔的小棠出世了，我也開心多了一個朋友仔一同玩啊！希望不會玩到似打大風啦！)

打樁?

自爺爺嫲嫲回港後，遙遙已搬回自己的房間，開始獨立的生活！但作為父母就不放心，於是安裝了baby monitor 等BB 可以召喚我們！遙遙每逢對着monitor 大叫，我便急步往聽候差”顯”。
但昨夜，baby monitor 傳來一下一下的打樁聲，立刻走去察看，發現遙遙已醒了、自轉、並用腳一下一下地踢個monitor。看着她自得其樂，都幾得意。
其實，遙遙很反瞓，雙腳亦很有力，經常踢反睡袋。但昨夜太熱，我沒有為她蓋被子，加上她在自己的床自轉才沒有發生問題。
感謝主，讓我不斷看見衪手所造的人成長的奇妙，更感謝衪給我看見遙遙自轉，叫我小心不可再單獨放她在大床上了。

中秋節

一年容易又中秋！這是我第一个中秋節。沒有月餅(現只吃奶奶)，沒有公眾假期 (我每天也是holiday)，但仍有燈籠！祝大家中秋節快樂。

第一次

以往聽人說做全職媽媽很辛苦又大壓力，是會認同但不等如明白，母親節和媽媽慶祝也有點例牌。
但當了全職媽媽(即C 拉)才兩个月就懷念返工的日子了。不是遙遙不可愛或扭計 (其實她算乖，不然我也沒有時間寫blog)，而是那24小時on call, 無休止的家務、照顧，真的累過返工！試過一整天，那件衣服和一對手也是濕的，洗衣、洗碗、洗地、洗澡……(以為自己是賣魚添(derek 是這樣形容)。現在才真正明白”C 拉”的辛苦，亦更感謝我媽媽！
遙遙昨天打針，晚上就發燒(38.7)，整个人呆呆地想睡，真的嚇得我不知所措。Derek 買了药回來，餵了她，燒慢慢地退，但遙遙就變得扭計，整夜要抱住，看着時鐘又看着探熱針就過了一晚，越來越似熊貓了。幸好，早上遙遙雖然仍有低燒但已精靈一點。這就是遙遙的第一次發燒。
其實未打針前有朋友叫我煮粟米水遙遙喝，只是我擔心遙遙太細不好亂吃東西，現在真的發燒了，連Derek 亦問我為何不煮給遙遙喝！我無言以對，這亦是作媽媽的壓力。
整天說着遙遙，希望沒有悶倒大家吧！

懞面家庭

感冒怪魔侵略地球，全球多个家庭被打敗，紛紛帶上面具！我們這家已徹底被打敗。媽媽剛除下面具、爸爸立即接力帶上，連遙遙亦不幸免。爺爺嫲嫲已回HK，現只剩媽媽獨力迎戰，真的如臨大敵！
遙遙鼻塞，睡不安寧，整夜要抱住，媽媽沒有面具但變成大熊貓！
今個星期五覆診，如遙遙感冒好番，就要打針，所以媽媽不可鬆懈！
知道HK 很多懞面Uncle & Aunt，要多多保重！

懞面媽咪

這兩天媽媽的面孔有些不同，像懞面超人。整天用粉紅色的面具蓋着鼻子和口，莫非和我玩peekapoo！但他的聲音也變了，又常有打乞嗤，經常很累似的！平日，總愛親我，這幾天像刻意保持距離，媽媽你怎麼了？爸爸說她病倒了。
我也開始學乖，平日可在床自己玩一陣，沒有扭計要抱抱。晚上，我雖然很想睡到天明，但肚仔唔爭氣，仍要媽媽餵我！可是我一喝完亦盡快投入夢鄉。
求天父保守媽媽身体快些好番，因下星期我要打防疫針，可能會比較扭計。

一年啦！

時間過得真快！轉眼來澳洲已經一年了。去年9月10日到達，寄居朋友家，一切像重新開始，心裏着實有點彷徨。一年時間，生活適應了，更添了一個家庭成員！
看着這一切，怎能不感謝神！
遙遙亦快滿兩個月，她的臉蛋兒一天一天改變，体重每個星期都有進脹，每天都有不同的驚喜給我！

My fussy periods

不知不覺我己六個星期大了，和媽咪相處雖未至心靈相通，但亦開始互相了解。每當到吃奶的時間，我便十分準時地哭叫。若媽咪未及時滿足我，我便將行動升級，放聲號哭。爸爸說我心急的情格遺傳自媽咪，媽咪說準時是美德！
現在，我有較多的清醒的時間，喜歡發掘四周的環境，但我最愛還是看爸爸媽媽的樣貌！
上星期到健康院檢查，護士給媽咪一份簡介BB 情緒的資料。雷電代表扭計期，太陽代表乖巧期！媽咪看着那份資料，又看看我，似乎這我六個星期並沒有什麼乖巧期。但她說我己有進步，希望太陽快D出來啦！

Mission con'td

40星期過去，第一目標達到。現在才是真正任務的開始！
遙遙滿月了，真不知道這個月是怎樣過！ 只知道每天餵奶、換片、洗澡 、哄睡覺，重覆又重覆，在極度疲倦下度過。但回想，時間過得太快，遙遙長大亦快，真的很懷念每一刻，想時間慢一點 ， 真的芧盾！
原來照顧一個人殊不簡單 (尤其是B B)，當她完全依賴你時，責任重大！ 開奶要試水温，換片要勤快，洗澡有難度，哄睡覺又要温柔和耐性，全天候24小時on call！還有各種特發的事情可供你擔心。 但只要健康成長，對你一笑，就什麼也值得。
這讓我想起神，衪就是一位父親，細心照顧我 一切所需，保守每一步只要我完全依賴衪。衪永不疲累和抱怨！上帝是我學習作父母的榜樣！
(特此鳴謝石仔給遙遙學習中文的機會)

Full moon

Time past fast, I am one month old. I have the full moon dinner with mum/ dad/ grandma and fiona ee.
I gradually adapt to this world though I still only concentrate on eat & sleep. Mum is working hard to observe my need and now we gradually knowing each other better.
Grand-ma & Aunt Fiona has been with us for 3 weeks. Fiona EE teached me bouncing with the big ball and now I still love it very much. Grandma cook good food for mum so I have better nutrition. Now mum has to cook herself (of course the food are much simple). I miss them very much, hope they can come again or I can be back to visit them.
Wendy EE also come to celebrate my full moon & they have a long chat. Mum said it is just like the old days. She missed HK very much.
I don't know how HK is like but would like to have a visit and see, as they said I have many friends there too (c hing,c mui, c dai......)

Love at first sight

The moment when I first saw you, as the eyes were in contact. I know that you are the one that I loved.
Then from that day onwards, I was being held by all your emotions. You smile, I smile. You cries, I try every effort, if still failed, then I cry. You wet your nappy, I am the one who fix it fast, even forget the nappy is dirty. You cry for hungry, I am the one who feed you immediately. You cry during your sleep in bed, I jump up fast to see you. You just occupy my heart.
I think this is love! Thank Gof for giving me this experience for Love!
That pic is the recent outing to opera house.

I am growing!!

I am now nearly one month old! Weight is gaining (of course not overweight). Mum said my hands/ legs are getting bigger too. Now I sleep less and have some time awake to play with mum & aunt.
I still cry pretty much especially at night time and need to eat 2 times in the middle of the night so mum is working hard. She still try to be patience & calm with me. She said her greatest satisfaction is to see me growing & be happy!

我的名字是......

我爸爸媽媽給我起了一個名字叫陳樂遙。他們說希望我愛神愛人，喜樂滿載我心，溫文謙和，逍遙一生! 雖然我現在不知道什麼是喜樂和逍遙，但爸爸媽媽會一步一步教我! 在我扭計時，他們會給我祈禱和唱詩歌，慢慢我就平靜下來，安然入睡! 看我睡得多甜! (爸媽還未能暢順打中文，今次槍手是阿姨)

my recent photo

Hi

I am siu see mui

I am siu see mui. This is my 10th day on earth. The earth is really beautiful. I have 2 obedient maids. They response quick when I cried, they always kiss my face without my permission but that is comfortable.
Whenever I cried fiercely, they have no method, only saying the Lord's prayer ( Matt 6:9-13), then I will settle a bit, I love the word Ahmen, it is really peaceful.
I learn alot these few days, I can smile, yawn, stretching arms & legs...... The maids said I learn fast & smart.
These days, grrand-mother & Aunt come to visit us and take care of me too. I think I will love this place more & more!

Mission accomplished part I

Without God's protection & guidance, this mission cannot be accomplished!
Without Derek's support & Love, this mission cannot be gone through!
Without all of your prayer support, this mission cannot be done !
Derek & I 's little girl Chloe Chan was born on 22/7/06. The whole process is really not easy and seems too long, as tough as the Exodus ( 40 years).
From very start of pregancy, day by day, there was always new things/ problems coming. Seeing we can gone through with prayer and support is really the grace of God.
Finally on the delivery date, it was really a hard day, somedays at night now I still can clearly recall the pain and the operation which make me sleepless.
I gone through pain, fear, uncontrolled and happiness at only 12 hours. The up & down is really like on roller coaster!
i remember when I was in great pain, the phone calls from HK church brother / sister are really supporting. When BB is in distress, the decision for C/S with those slow Dr was amazing fast. This must be the answered prayer from God.
Even on the operation table, the fear make me shake involuntarily even under epidural, the moment of uncontrol and not knowing what will happen with my BB girl was really frightening. But God protect every things! Chloe finally comes to meet us!
Thank you for all your 40 weeks prayer and support!
Special thanks to my husband "Derek" for his unconditional Love & support (like writing a book)
Of course, without God, all these things will not come true!

Times up!

40 weeks nearly past, due day is on the way. Still wandering when the baby will come? What do I need to prepare? What will be happen...... Too many questions!
Today, we have the Dr's follow up in hospital. Before seeing the Dr, I plan when will be the due day, do I need induction....as I don't want to wait too long.
However, the midwife & the Dr suddenly said they want to induced this Thur night(20/7/06). Derek & I are shocked and do not know how to response. The Dr said the baby is small in size, and there is a large fibroid inside, they don't want to risk the baby to wait so it is better to have her induced earlier. Of course, you know Dr always use techniqical terms and frightening words as you ask them for any side effects or complication for induction. Even though I am working in the medical professions, my tears still cannot control. The fear & uncertainly is really difficult to bear, another case showing we can control nothing.
In review the last 40 weeks, God is with us. He takes care of us, only HE knows what is good for us. Every time when I was in stress or despair, HE is there to guide and comfort. So I still have strong trust in HIM.
When we return home from the hospital, I can see Derek is in stress, he is not prepared to have the induction this week, he would like to seek for 2nd opinion. I understand his worries, but seeing another Dr. will not really make much difference as I still be having the delivery in this hopsital and within this or next week.
We pray together, though still in shock & tears but I feel the calm and peace.
God know I am the kind of person who need to know what is going to happen, being induced I have a exact day and I will have a clear mind. Anyway before seeing the Dr, I plan to induced next week, it is just happen 1 week faster and without our mind preparation. So making us so shock.
Only God knows best. Please pray for us especially for the safety and health of the baby, the smoothness of the whole process and the peaceful mind for Derek.
Hopefully , in next passage, we can see this beautiful little girl.

To be parents?

Recently, friends around me are announcing news for pregnancy, many of them are expecting for the Dog year. ? what trigger the wind for pregancy.
still, some friends of mine told me they are not prepared to have BB (either the husband or wife don't want), it can be any reasons......
I don't really have any comments on whether we should or should not have BB. But I do agree it is a family decision, that means both the husband and wife agree on the decision without regret. Let's share Derek & I 's experience.
When we first get married, we have not plan to have BB, there is no pressure. Always we put work/ friends and new life first. Until 2-3 years, we started to think if we want BB. At that time, Derek did not show any eager, and we are planning to move to Aust or start a business so we concluded that this is not the timing. At that time, we still don't think having BB is a must.
I remembered in one gathering, (Couple fellowship with outside speaker)around 2004, After a prayer, Derek suddenly told me that He has the feeling that it is time we should start to plan a BB. I really shock as I am not prepared and I still have many task to do......I just said keep praying and see as I id not have that feeling.
Finally, when we arrived to Australia, we were start to plan to pray to have BB but every thing were in preliminary stage. Then out of expectation, we have the BB within 1 month. I remembered the first test indicate I was pregnant. I rushed to Derek and we prayed. We knew we were not prepare to be parents yet(even don't know how to be parents)but We felt the calm & peace from God that He will guide us.
Being parents are not only responsility, we always count how many we have or we need to deliver and make us stop thinking having BB.
But I learn from God that it is not what we have or proud of that make us to be his son/ girls. It is really because our insuffiency that make us know the grace of GOD. Same for having a BB is not because we are very responsible and own many things, rather BB is the mean for us to learn to be responsbile and LOVE.
So the couple not yet come to conclusion to have BB or not, then need more pray together. God will show us his way and help us to plan because having BB or not is really not determine only by the husband & wife. I saw many people in Aust go for IVF for having BB still not sucessful and with great distress. So having BB is really a gift from GOD.
About is only my personal opinion.
I have a recent pic, really big & huge (quite like a ball, my waist line now is 42 inches).

Expecting......

This is middle of June, 16/6/06 is my last day at work and I am going to start a long vocation. To me, it is really new experience as I have not have a long holiday since I left school.
I am now 35 weeks, tummy of course is bigger & bigger, getting up & down more difficult, walk very slowly & even short of breath while going up slopes and stairs, that feeling reminded me those days for trail walker.
From pregnant till now is 35 weeks, not really long but just can't wait to see the little BB. Thank for God's protection, everything runs smooth, though still up & down with unexpected illness, we still enjoy every moments.
Yesterday when I was in the office, I thought I am still ok. I can still manage to work for 2 more weeks ( 2 more & 2 more......). But suddenly, I realize that everything has its timing. If God did not allow, I had lost my job since Feb 2006. I would be waiting at home, worrying. But God gave me the chance to work, to explore the life in sydney and to know more people. People (patients) around me were so nice that they care me & BB more than I do. I just can't stop praising God and share with them how good is my God.
Finishing the job, means the start of the new life with BB & Derek. Derek said now I am more like a mum & lose the ambition for work. I think it is just timing. If God provide time & space to allow me to be concentrate as mum, I would do my best & try to enjoy every moment to take care of the family. I still love my career, still thinking when I will return to the work force. But at the meantime, I will concentrate on my family and the new members. Going through the pregnancy made me realize how my mum sacrifice her life to have us. With all those illness in pregancy I realize how she love us. So being pregnant is really a new learning process, everyday has something new to learn.
To all the expecting mum & dad, hope U enjoy every moment & may God be with U all!

Long time no talk

It has been months since last blog updated and suddenly found many new friends on the blog.
Time pass really fast! We have a few changes in these weeks so no time to get to the internet.

1. We move to a new apartment by 25 April 2006, very close to hospital. Thank for church's brother and sister to help for the moving.
2. I start the part-time job (3 times a week) to keep me busy but still time to rest. Actually God know me too well that He has not stop me from working as I will be bored to dead if working nothing. Of course we need to save some more bullets for the future as I may not work for more than 1/2 year to take care the bb. Anyway, Derek urge me to stop the job by the end of May just to get enough rest!
3. Unluckily, I have the initial gestational DM test +ve so need another one to confirm. Also with iron defficiency so look pale and tired. I become to worry about the bb so monior my diet more cautionsly. I know God will protect us so still calm.
4. last week has the parental class, talking about the delivery methods. I am abit nervous. Should I use epidual or not, or to taste the 10 degree pain, or go for operation if I have complication like bb position or DM. Too much to consider!
5. have a great time with Alan & Angel as their visit really remind me the friends in HK.
6. start to pack up the bag and checking bb stuff.
Too much to do, too tired & lazy! that's why so long no udpate!

The dark side

In life, there is always up & down. When we are in the high side, we can easily say good things and praise the Lord. It is often difficult to keep praise the Lord when we face difficulties.
I found myself pregnant which really is a good news to our family even though the timing is not in our plan. Then I suddenly being laid off by my boss in Feb. The world seems turn dark suddenly. No work, no money, no justice, being look down upon because I am pregnant? All these thoughts keep in my mind which make me cry every night. I keep asking why and feel helpless. Even though all friends are on my side, I still feel sad.
At that time, I keep praying God what can I do. Still with complain, I learn fast to submit and obey. I understand that there must be a reason for God to do this though I am too stupid to understand.
By March, just left that company, I have red rash over my bodies which make me start to realize how weak am I. I need rest. At that time, all I want is my baby is ok, I don't mind suffer wtih pain or itchness. God make me realize my body condition is the most important for the baby rather than job.
Later that week, our church planning for buying new place for gathering service. Derek & I wants to particiate for money donation but I have no job. We ask God to provide job for me if HE wants us to participate. At the end of that week, I start the locum job which expand my view and provide me money for donation. I work happily alone in my pace and gain more experience. 1 month passed, the money for this month has not been less, I just cannot believe it.
I want to share is: when I am in the dark, I still not learn to praise the Lord immediately, (That 's why I have not update my blog.) But I do realize that God has not leave us even in the dark, He needs us to be humble and surrender to him so he can do his work.
All I can say is God is really very close and try to teach Derek & I a lesson on how powerful He is!

AMAZING GRACE

2005 has pasted. 2006 comes, everything is a new start. How many times do we start to count the grace from God?
Usually at the end of the year,we will try to recall how much God has done for us. But this year , for me is a bit different, I try to recall God's grace everyday and then I found that God is really very, very close.
Last November, I found our myself to be a mother, at that moment, everything is really unreal. It happens too fast, we just come here at Sept. start working, found a place to live and have a car, just the start of new life. We have not even think about how to modified our living style before planning for a baby.
I remember we would like to start a prayer plan first. But God's plan is very accurate, I truely feel what is meant by : before U pray, God know already. This baby is really a miracle to us.
Once I am pregnant, I start to feel out of control, I feel really sick and seems no one understand (as I have not talk to anybody yet). My working place has many things need to be aware, the water class, the electical machine ....... The life style I am having, the food I am eating...... How can I make sure these things are ok for the baby? The insecurity is really very strong. But I realize that only God can help. HE knows us when we are in worm, only HE can know my baby and be with him/her. So every morning, I pray with the baby, as I know God will protect him/ her.
As a mother to be, the identity has changed. Before, I can do what I like to, plan what I want to. But now I need to be responsible for the baby. I cannot do what I like, or eat what I feel good. I start to think it is the kind of love that God give us (unconditioned), HE loves us so HE sacrified. I am glad that I have the chance to experience this kind of love. ( I also thank what my mum have done to me) Though it is a long way to go, but it is also a fruitful and sweet way to go.

Hope this mother to be's inner voice would not be too boring!