Mission con'td

40星期過去，第一目標達到。現在才是真正任務的開始！
遙遙滿月了，真不知道這個月是怎樣過！ 只知道每天餵奶、換片、洗澡 、哄睡覺，重覆又重覆，在極度疲倦下度過。但回想，時間過得太快，遙遙長大亦快，真的很懷念每一刻，想時間慢一點 ， 真的芧盾！
原來照顧一個人殊不簡單 (尤其是B B)，當她完全依賴你時，責任重大！ 開奶要試水温，換片要勤快，洗澡有難度，哄睡覺又要温柔和耐性，全天候24小時on call！還有各種特發的事情可供你擔心。 但只要健康成長，對你一笑，就什麼也值得。
這讓我想起神，衪就是一位父親，細心照顧我 一切所需，保守每一步只要我完全依賴衪。衪永不疲累和抱怨！上帝是我學習作父母的榜樣！
(特此鳴謝石仔給遙遙學習中文的機會)

Full moon

Time past fast, I am one month old. I have the full moon dinner with mum/ dad/ grandma and fiona ee.
I gradually adapt to this world though I still only concentrate on eat & sleep. Mum is working hard to observe my need and now we gradually knowing each other better.
Grand-ma & Aunt Fiona has been with us for 3 weeks. Fiona EE teached me bouncing with the big ball and now I still love it very much. Grandma cook good food for mum so I have better nutrition. Now mum has to cook herself (of course the food are much simple). I miss them very much, hope they can come again or I can be back to visit them.
Wendy EE also come to celebrate my full moon & they have a long chat. Mum said it is just like the old days. She missed HK very much.
I don't know how HK is like but would like to have a visit and see, as they said I have many friends there too (c hing,c mui, c dai......)

Love at first sight

The moment when I first saw you, as the eyes were in contact. I know that you are the one that I loved.
Then from that day onwards, I was being held by all your emotions. You smile, I smile. You cries, I try every effort, if still failed, then I cry. You wet your nappy, I am the one who fix it fast, even forget the nappy is dirty. You cry for hungry, I am the one who feed you immediately. You cry during your sleep in bed, I jump up fast to see you. You just occupy my heart.
I think this is love! Thank Gof for giving me this experience for Love!
That pic is the recent outing to opera house.

I am growing!!

I am now nearly one month old! Weight is gaining (of course not overweight). Mum said my hands/ legs are getting bigger too. Now I sleep less and have some time awake to play with mum & aunt.
I still cry pretty much especially at night time and need to eat 2 times in the middle of the night so mum is working hard. She still try to be patience & calm with me. She said her greatest satisfaction is to see me growing & be happy!

我的名字是......

我爸爸媽媽給我起了一個名字叫陳樂遙。他們說希望我愛神愛人，喜樂滿載我心，溫文謙和，逍遙一生! 雖然我現在不知道什麼是喜樂和逍遙，但爸爸媽媽會一步一步教我! 在我扭計時，他們會給我祈禱和唱詩歌，慢慢我就平靜下來，安然入睡! 看我睡得多甜! (爸媽還未能暢順打中文，今次槍手是阿姨)

my recent photo

Hi

I am siu see mui

I am siu see mui. This is my 10th day on earth. The earth is really beautiful. I have 2 obedient maids. They response quick when I cried, they always kiss my face without my permission but that is comfortable.
Whenever I cried fiercely, they have no method, only saying the Lord's prayer ( Matt 6:9-13), then I will settle a bit, I love the word Ahmen, it is really peaceful.
I learn alot these few days, I can smile, yawn, stretching arms & legs...... The maids said I learn fast & smart.
These days, grrand-mother & Aunt come to visit us and take care of me too. I think I will love this place more & more!

Mission accomplished part I

Without God's protection & guidance, this mission cannot be accomplished!
Without Derek's support & Love, this mission cannot be gone through!
Without all of your prayer support, this mission cannot be done !
Derek & I 's little girl Chloe Chan was born on 22/7/06. The whole process is really not easy and seems too long, as tough as the Exodus ( 40 years).
From very start of pregancy, day by day, there was always new things/ problems coming. Seeing we can gone through with prayer and support is really the grace of God.
Finally on the delivery date, it was really a hard day, somedays at night now I still can clearly recall the pain and the operation which make me sleepless.
I gone through pain, fear, uncontrolled and happiness at only 12 hours. The up & down is really like on roller coaster!
i remember when I was in great pain, the phone calls from HK church brother / sister are really supporting. When BB is in distress, the decision for C/S with those slow Dr was amazing fast. This must be the answered prayer from God.
Even on the operation table, the fear make me shake involuntarily even under epidural, the moment of uncontrol and not knowing what will happen with my BB girl was really frightening. But God protect every things! Chloe finally comes to meet us!
Thank you for all your 40 weeks prayer and support!
Special thanks to my husband "Derek" for his unconditional Love & support (like writing a book)
Of course, without God, all these things will not come true!

Times up!

40 weeks nearly past, due day is on the way. Still wandering when the baby will come? What do I need to prepare? What will be happen...... Too many questions!
Today, we have the Dr's follow up in hospital. Before seeing the Dr, I plan when will be the due day, do I need induction....as I don't want to wait too long.
However, the midwife & the Dr suddenly said they want to induced this Thur night(20/7/06). Derek & I are shocked and do not know how to response. The Dr said the baby is small in size, and there is a large fibroid inside, they don't want to risk the baby to wait so it is better to have her induced earlier. Of course, you know Dr always use techniqical terms and frightening words as you ask them for any side effects or complication for induction. Even though I am working in the medical professions, my tears still cannot control. The fear & uncertainly is really difficult to bear, another case showing we can control nothing.
In review the last 40 weeks, God is with us. He takes care of us, only HE knows what is good for us. Every time when I was in stress or despair, HE is there to guide and comfort. So I still have strong trust in HIM.
When we return home from the hospital, I can see Derek is in stress, he is not prepared to have the induction this week, he would like to seek for 2nd opinion. I understand his worries, but seeing another Dr. will not really make much difference as I still be having the delivery in this hopsital and within this or next week.
We pray together, though still in shock & tears but I feel the calm and peace.
God know I am the kind of person who need to know what is going to happen, being induced I have a exact day and I will have a clear mind. Anyway before seeing the Dr, I plan to induced next week, it is just happen 1 week faster and without our mind preparation. So making us so shock.
Only God knows best. Please pray for us especially for the safety and health of the baby, the smoothness of the whole process and the peaceful mind for Derek.
Hopefully , in next passage, we can see this beautiful little girl.

To be parents?

Recently, friends around me are announcing news for pregnancy, many of them are expecting for the Dog year. ? what trigger the wind for pregancy.
still, some friends of mine told me they are not prepared to have BB (either the husband or wife don't want), it can be any reasons......
I don't really have any comments on whether we should or should not have BB. But I do agree it is a family decision, that means both the husband and wife agree on the decision without regret. Let's share Derek & I 's experience.
When we first get married, we have not plan to have BB, there is no pressure. Always we put work/ friends and new life first. Until 2-3 years, we started to think if we want BB. At that time, Derek did not show any eager, and we are planning to move to Aust or start a business so we concluded that this is not the timing. At that time, we still don't think having BB is a must.
I remembered in one gathering, (Couple fellowship with outside speaker)around 2004, After a prayer, Derek suddenly told me that He has the feeling that it is time we should start to plan a BB. I really shock as I am not prepared and I still have many task to do......I just said keep praying and see as I id not have that feeling.
Finally, when we arrived to Australia, we were start to plan to pray to have BB but every thing were in preliminary stage. Then out of expectation, we have the BB within 1 month. I remembered the first test indicate I was pregnant. I rushed to Derek and we prayed. We knew we were not prepare to be parents yet(even don't know how to be parents)but We felt the calm & peace from God that He will guide us.
Being parents are not only responsility, we always count how many we have or we need to deliver and make us stop thinking having BB.
But I learn from God that it is not what we have or proud of that make us to be his son/ girls. It is really because our insuffiency that make us know the grace of GOD. Same for having a BB is not because we are very responsible and own many things, rather BB is the mean for us to learn to be responsbile and LOVE.
So the couple not yet come to conclusion to have BB or not, then need more pray together. God will show us his way and help us to plan because having BB or not is really not determine only by the husband & wife. I saw many people in Aust go for IVF for having BB still not sucessful and with great distress. So having BB is really a gift from GOD.
About is only my personal opinion.
I have a recent pic, really big & huge (quite like a ball, my waist line now is 42 inches).

Expecting......

This is middle of June, 16/6/06 is my last day at work and I am going to start a long vocation. To me, it is really new experience as I have not have a long holiday since I left school.
I am now 35 weeks, tummy of course is bigger & bigger, getting up & down more difficult, walk very slowly & even short of breath while going up slopes and stairs, that feeling reminded me those days for trail walker.
From pregnant till now is 35 weeks, not really long but just can't wait to see the little BB. Thank for God's protection, everything runs smooth, though still up & down with unexpected illness, we still enjoy every moments.
Yesterday when I was in the office, I thought I am still ok. I can still manage to work for 2 more weeks ( 2 more & 2 more......). But suddenly, I realize that everything has its timing. If God did not allow, I had lost my job since Feb 2006. I would be waiting at home, worrying. But God gave me the chance to work, to explore the life in sydney and to know more people. People (patients) around me were so nice that they care me & BB more than I do. I just can't stop praising God and share with them how good is my God.
Finishing the job, means the start of the new life with BB & Derek. Derek said now I am more like a mum & lose the ambition for work. I think it is just timing. If God provide time & space to allow me to be concentrate as mum, I would do my best & try to enjoy every moment to take care of the family. I still love my career, still thinking when I will return to the work force. But at the meantime, I will concentrate on my family and the new members. Going through the pregnancy made me realize how my mum sacrifice her life to have us. With all those illness in pregancy I realize how she love us. So being pregnant is really a new learning process, everyday has something new to learn.
To all the expecting mum & dad, hope U enjoy every moment & may God be with U all!

Long time no talk

It has been months since last blog updated and suddenly found many new friends on the blog.
Time pass really fast! We have a few changes in these weeks so no time to get to the internet.

1. We move to a new apartment by 25 April 2006, very close to hospital. Thank for church's brother and sister to help for the moving.
2. I start the part-time job (3 times a week) to keep me busy but still time to rest. Actually God know me too well that He has not stop me from working as I will be bored to dead if working nothing. Of course we need to save some more bullets for the future as I may not work for more than 1/2 year to take care the bb. Anyway, Derek urge me to stop the job by the end of May just to get enough rest!
3. Unluckily, I have the initial gestational DM test +ve so need another one to confirm. Also with iron defficiency so look pale and tired. I become to worry about the bb so monior my diet more cautionsly. I know God will protect us so still calm.
4. last week has the parental class, talking about the delivery methods. I am abit nervous. Should I use epidual or not, or to taste the 10 degree pain, or go for operation if I have complication like bb position or DM. Too much to consider!
5. have a great time with Alan & Angel as their visit really remind me the friends in HK.
6. start to pack up the bag and checking bb stuff.
Too much to do, too tired & lazy! that's why so long no udpate!

The dark side

In life, there is always up & down. When we are in the high side, we can easily say good things and praise the Lord. It is often difficult to keep praise the Lord when we face difficulties.
I found myself pregnant which really is a good news to our family even though the timing is not in our plan. Then I suddenly being laid off by my boss in Feb. The world seems turn dark suddenly. No work, no money, no justice, being look down upon because I am pregnant? All these thoughts keep in my mind which make me cry every night. I keep asking why and feel helpless. Even though all friends are on my side, I still feel sad.
At that time, I keep praying God what can I do. Still with complain, I learn fast to submit and obey. I understand that there must be a reason for God to do this though I am too stupid to understand.
By March, just left that company, I have red rash over my bodies which make me start to realize how weak am I. I need rest. At that time, all I want is my baby is ok, I don't mind suffer wtih pain or itchness. God make me realize my body condition is the most important for the baby rather than job.
Later that week, our church planning for buying new place for gathering service. Derek & I wants to particiate for money donation but I have no job. We ask God to provide job for me if HE wants us to participate. At the end of that week, I start the locum job which expand my view and provide me money for donation. I work happily alone in my pace and gain more experience. 1 month passed, the money for this month has not been less, I just cannot believe it.
I want to share is: when I am in the dark, I still not learn to praise the Lord immediately, (That 's why I have not update my blog.) But I do realize that God has not leave us even in the dark, He needs us to be humble and surrender to him so he can do his work.
All I can say is God is really very close and try to teach Derek & I a lesson on how powerful He is!

AMAZING GRACE

2005 has pasted. 2006 comes, everything is a new start. How many times do we start to count the grace from God?
Usually at the end of the year,we will try to recall how much God has done for us. But this year , for me is a bit different, I try to recall God's grace everyday and then I found that God is really very, very close.
Last November, I found our myself to be a mother, at that moment, everything is really unreal. It happens too fast, we just come here at Sept. start working, found a place to live and have a car, just the start of new life. We have not even think about how to modified our living style before planning for a baby.
I remember we would like to start a prayer plan first. But God's plan is very accurate, I truely feel what is meant by : before U pray, God know already. This baby is really a miracle to us.
Once I am pregnant, I start to feel out of control, I feel really sick and seems no one understand (as I have not talk to anybody yet). My working place has many things need to be aware, the water class, the electical machine ....... The life style I am having, the food I am eating...... How can I make sure these things are ok for the baby? The insecurity is really very strong. But I realize that only God can help. HE knows us when we are in worm, only HE can know my baby and be with him/her. So every morning, I pray with the baby, as I know God will protect him/ her.
As a mother to be, the identity has changed. Before, I can do what I like to, plan what I want to. But now I need to be responsible for the baby. I cannot do what I like, or eat what I feel good. I start to think it is the kind of love that God give us (unconditioned), HE loves us so HE sacrified. I am glad that I have the chance to experience this kind of love. ( I also thank what my mum have done to me) Though it is a long way to go, but it is also a fruitful and sweet way to go.

Hope this mother to be's inner voice would not be too boring!

Christmas in NSW

Christmas has passed quickly, with the 4 days holiday we eat, chat, rest.
How are your christmas?
On the 24th, which was a very hot day, with hot wind blowing, temp around 38 degree. We went to China Town as tourist and had small boat congee and Yau cha gray. It has been a long time we had not have so local chinese food, so we enjoy much. In the evening, we went to church for party. Derek was in the drama as one of the wise men. He needed to sing too. Ha ha!
25th, the christmas day, morning in church. then we have lunch party in one of the friend's home, eating too much. Very sleepy , but we were not allow to go home yet since we have another BBQ in another friend's house in the evening. Aussi like BBQ very much, not the traditional way with char col. Use gas instead, so more like fried. They like to eat in their backyard, with drinks. Usually only one man is busy with cooking, others sit back & relax.
26th, we watched movie (Narnia) in the afternoon. The cinema was full of kids. Evening we went to another friends and enjoy Greek food. Jimmy is a European so he can cook very good European food. That night was really good, with wellcome drink, entree, main course, dessert, coffee...... Too full la! (you must think that we gain weight, of course la)
27th, we attended my colleague's son (8 months old) christening in a small Norway church. The ceremony is a bit different but still very warm and enjoyable. That night I grill a chicken (my first time), and share dinner with our neightbour( Ken/ Elaine), then we all went to see the christmas' s light decoration. The decoration is a bit different from HK, nto for business. They are done by the house owner, ususally the whole street will join for the decoration and make their street beacutiful. Then people search online to find the street, then everybody drove there and enjoy! This is a new experience.
4 days past, very busy though. Before I think we might just 2 of us celebrate and rest. But it turned out to have much people around us. This make this christmas special and enjoyable. Of course, all these not come without reasons. It is God who guide and enclose us with friends. We missed all of U in HK as I think we might have gathering either hot pot or bird game!
Anyway new year is coming, happy new year!

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas! Time pass fast, remember last year in HK. Derek & I hurrried to buy christmas gift for friends as we thought that is the last christmas before we leave for Australia. Now this is the first year in Australia for a hot christmas!
As in a western country, they treat Christmas as a big day for family gathering. They will buy christmas gift (a bit crazy in the shopping center), cook christmas lunch with turkey, roast chicken, pork, hams, seafood, desert...... just like us in chinese new year.
Every people look forward for christmas and they usually have long holiday from 21 dec till first week of jan. Some even longer!
The patients I met are also excited about christmas and always ask what will I do during those days and since only Derek & I are here, they think that we are too lonely. They brought christmas present to me which really suprise me!
But I have not heard about the real meaning of christmas from them, they all treat as family gathering days like Thanksgiving. I am a bit suprise when in a western country, less and less people talk about Jesus Christ in his big day, people just busy with shopping and preparing foods and talking about Santa chous. So when they ask me what will I do, I jsut tell them I will go to church to celebrate the birth of christ.
As christian, I still remind myself this is the great day for us as Jesus Christ is born to save us. Without him, we are still in sin and cannot reunit with God.
This year, Derek & I still will go to church on 24 Dec (evening) & 25 Dec, then we may have gathering with the friends in church.
Here, we wish you are Merry Christmas and may God's blessing be with U all!

God's grace

申 命 記 Deuteronomy 8:11-18

你 要 謹 慎 、 免 得 忘 記 耶 和 華 你 的 　 神 、 不 守 他 的 誡 命 、 典 章 、 律 例 、 就 是 我 今 日 所 吩 咐 你 的 。
8:12

恐 怕 你 喫 得 飽 足 、 建 造 美 好 的 房 屋 居 住 ．
8:13

你 的 牛 羊 加 多 、 你 的 金 銀 增 添 、 並 你 所 有 的 全 都 加 增 、
8:14

你 就 心 高 氣 傲 、 忘 記 耶 和 華 你 的 　 神 、 就 是 將 你 從 埃 及 地 為 奴 之 家 領 出 來 的 、

8:15

引 你 經 過 那 大 而 可 怕 的 曠 野 、 那 裡 有 火 蛇 、 蠍 子 、 乾 旱 無 水 之 地 ． 他 曾 為 你 使 水 從 堅 硬 的 磐 石 中 流 出 來 ．
8:16

又 在 曠 野 、 將 你 列 祖 所 不 認 識 的 嗎 哪 賜 給 你 喫 、 是 要 苦 煉 你 、 試 驗 你 、 叫 你 終 久 享 福 。
8:17

恐 怕 你 心 裡 說 、 這 貨 財 是 我 力 量 我 能 力 得 來 的 。
8:18

你 要 記 念 耶 和 華 你 的 　 神 、 因 為 得 貨 財 的 力 量 是 他 給 你 的 、 為 要 堅 定 他 向 你 列 祖 起 誓 所 立 的 約 、 像 今 日 一 樣 。

I think this remind me everything I did is from God's grace.

When people reaches certain age (I don't mean I am old), we always think we should possess something (status, wealth, achievement......). But at this stage, I still not able to get those, sometimes, I might think is the life all about? This might be the mid age crisis.
But as the grace from God remind me that all I possess now is not because what I have done, it is given by God. When I look back, I have all the essential needs from God but not the same way as the world count.....

8:4

這 四 十 年 、 你 的 衣 服 沒 有 穿 破 、 你 的 腳 也 沒 有 腫 。
8:5

你 當 心 裡 思 想 、 耶 和 華 你 　 神 管 教 你 、 好 像 人 管 教 兒 子 一 樣 。
8:6

你 要 謹 守 耶 和 華 你 　 神 的 誡 命 、 遵 行 他 的 道 、 敬 畏 他 ．
8:7

因 為 耶 和 華 你 　 神 領 你 進 入 美 地 、 那 地 有 河 、 有 泉 、 有 源 、 從 山 谷 中 流 出 水 來 。
8:8

那 地 有 小 麥 、 大 麥 、 葡 萄 樹 、 無 花 果 樹 、 石 榴 樹 、 橄 欖 樹 、 和 蜜 。
8:9

你 在 那 地 不 缺 食 物 、 一 無 所 缺 ． 那 地 的 石 頭 是 鐵 、 山 內 可 以 挖 銅 。
8:10

你 喫 得 飽 足 、 就 要 稱 頌 耶 和 華 你 的 　 神 、 因 他 將 那 美 地 賜 給 你 了 。

This is very true to us too. This is a different point of view. Of course, as Christian, we must follow God' way as this is the best way. Sometimes we just think too much but do too little.
Hope we can really learn and praise the Lord.

我們在澳洲的日子

歡樂時光特別快，又係時候講拜拜。返了公青四年，現因遷居澳洲而暫別了。機場的每一幕還歷歷在目，現我們離H.K.也三個月了。初踏上征途時，滿懷畏懼，畢竟在全陌生的地方，沒有親人，怎不懼怕？但還記得經上說：「當剛強壯膽，主必與你同在。」心裏才踏實點。

9月9日到Australia，寄居在朋友家﹝Elaine / Ken﹞，從未試過在別人的家那麼久﹝三個多星期啊﹞，他們的照顧使我們明白何為〝接待〞，衣食住行無不關顧，使我們深深感受何為主內肢體相愛，但願我倆有機會去學懂怎樣接待他人。

9月16日，Derek和我也開始工作了，全新的工作環境、陌生的人、全英對話，偶然遇著個說Cantonese / 國語的人，真的開心，這一切的適應也不容易，唯有靠禱告‧‧‧‧‧‧

10月2日，我們搬進自己的Unit，有汽車、有工作、有教會，一切都穩定下來。這邊的教會都說我們快速，似足香港人，但認識我們的朋友都明白我們不是作快決定的性格，每件事必先計算、計劃、商量才能作決定。這次的快捷全是神的安排，祂深知我們的需要和性格，所以在無須多作選擇下有最好的安排。看！主真的看顧我們每一步！

初來澳洲，本來計劃先休息一下，四處逛逛，但現在我倆也開始了工作，所以旅遊的計劃只好暫停。Derek亦問為何神這麼快要我們工作呢？現在看來，神的計劃是比我們高，祂知道只靠積蓄的生活是怎樣，況且這裏的開支也不少，二人都有工作實是恩典，因教會弟兄姊妹說有很多人來了一年也未找到工作，沒有收入，亦開始懷疑自己移民的決定而形成家庭問題，但我們這麼快找到工作亦是神的恩典。

一天早上靈修時，看到申命記8章，看見神引領以色列人出埃及，神怎樣看顧他們，今日神亦看顧我們，回看以往的日子，我們的衣服沒有穿破，沒有捱餓、扺冷，這不是偶然，是神一切的保守。這篇經文亦提醒我們勿忘神的恩典，「當謹守耶和華神的誡命，遵行祂的道，敬畏祂，因為耶和華我神領我們進入美地」﹝申8：6﹞神的恩典實在豐厚，短短數月，數也數不盡，祂的愛真的無法量度，唯有不斷讚美我主我神！