第一次

以往聽人說做全職媽媽很辛苦又大壓力，是會認同但不等如明白，母親節和媽媽慶祝也有點例牌。
但當了全職媽媽(即C 拉)才兩个月就懷念返工的日子了。不是遙遙不可愛或扭計 (其實她算乖，不然我也沒有時間寫blog)，而是那24小時on call, 無休止的家務、照顧，真的累過返工！試過一整天，那件衣服和一對手也是濕的，洗衣、洗碗、洗地、洗澡……(以為自己是賣魚添(derek 是這樣形容)。現在才真正明白”C 拉”的辛苦，亦更感謝我媽媽！
遙遙昨天打針，晚上就發燒(38.7)，整个人呆呆地想睡，真的嚇得我不知所措。Derek 買了药回來，餵了她，燒慢慢地退，但遙遙就變得扭計，整夜要抱住，看着時鐘又看着探熱針就過了一晚，越來越似熊貓了。幸好，早上遙遙雖然仍有低燒但已精靈一點。這就是遙遙的第一次發燒。
其實未打針前有朋友叫我煮粟米水遙遙喝，只是我擔心遙遙太細不好亂吃東西，現在真的發燒了，連Derek 亦問我為何不煮給遙遙喝！我無言以對，這亦是作媽媽的壓力。
整天說着遙遙，希望沒有悶倒大家吧！

懞面家庭

感冒怪魔侵略地球，全球多个家庭被打敗，紛紛帶上面具！我們這家已徹底被打敗。媽媽剛除下面具、爸爸立即接力帶上，連遙遙亦不幸免。爺爺嫲嫲已回HK，現只剩媽媽獨力迎戰，真的如臨大敵！
遙遙鼻塞，睡不安寧，整夜要抱住，媽媽沒有面具但變成大熊貓！
今個星期五覆診，如遙遙感冒好番，就要打針，所以媽媽不可鬆懈！
知道HK 很多懞面Uncle & Aunt，要多多保重！

懞面媽咪

這兩天媽媽的面孔有些不同，像懞面超人。整天用粉紅色的面具蓋着鼻子和口，莫非和我玩peekapoo！但他的聲音也變了，又常有打乞嗤，經常很累似的！平日，總愛親我，這幾天像刻意保持距離，媽媽你怎麼了？爸爸說她病倒了。
我也開始學乖，平日可在床自己玩一陣，沒有扭計要抱抱。晚上，我雖然很想睡到天明，但肚仔唔爭氣，仍要媽媽餵我！可是我一喝完亦盡快投入夢鄉。
求天父保守媽媽身体快些好番，因下星期我要打防疫針，可能會比較扭計。

一年啦！

時間過得真快！轉眼來澳洲已經一年了。去年9月10日到達，寄居朋友家，一切像重新開始，心裏着實有點彷徨。一年時間，生活適應了，更添了一個家庭成員！
看着這一切，怎能不感謝神！
遙遙亦快滿兩個月，她的臉蛋兒一天一天改變，体重每個星期都有進脹，每天都有不同的驚喜給我！

My fussy periods

不知不覺我己六個星期大了，和媽咪相處雖未至心靈相通，但亦開始互相了解。每當到吃奶的時間，我便十分準時地哭叫。若媽咪未及時滿足我，我便將行動升級，放聲號哭。爸爸說我心急的情格遺傳自媽咪，媽咪說準時是美德！
現在，我有較多的清醒的時間，喜歡發掘四周的環境，但我最愛還是看爸爸媽媽的樣貌！
上星期到健康院檢查，護士給媽咪一份簡介BB 情緒的資料。雷電代表扭計期，太陽代表乖巧期！媽咪看着那份資料，又看看我，似乎這我六個星期並沒有什麼乖巧期。但她說我己有進步，希望太陽快D出來啦！

Mission con'td

40星期過去，第一目標達到。現在才是真正任務的開始！
遙遙滿月了，真不知道這個月是怎樣過！ 只知道每天餵奶、換片、洗澡 、哄睡覺，重覆又重覆，在極度疲倦下度過。但回想，時間過得太快，遙遙長大亦快，真的很懷念每一刻，想時間慢一點 ， 真的芧盾！
原來照顧一個人殊不簡單 (尤其是B B)，當她完全依賴你時，責任重大！ 開奶要試水温，換片要勤快，洗澡有難度，哄睡覺又要温柔和耐性，全天候24小時on call！還有各種特發的事情可供你擔心。 但只要健康成長，對你一笑，就什麼也值得。
這讓我想起神，衪就是一位父親，細心照顧我 一切所需，保守每一步只要我完全依賴衪。衪永不疲累和抱怨！上帝是我學習作父母的榜樣！
(特此鳴謝石仔給遙遙學習中文的機會)

Full moon

Time past fast, I am one month old. I have the full moon dinner with mum/ dad/ grandma and fiona ee.
I gradually adapt to this world though I still only concentrate on eat & sleep. Mum is working hard to observe my need and now we gradually knowing each other better.
Grand-ma & Aunt Fiona has been with us for 3 weeks. Fiona EE teached me bouncing with the big ball and now I still love it very much. Grandma cook good food for mum so I have better nutrition. Now mum has to cook herself (of course the food are much simple). I miss them very much, hope they can come again or I can be back to visit them.
Wendy EE also come to celebrate my full moon & they have a long chat. Mum said it is just like the old days. She missed HK very much.
I don't know how HK is like but would like to have a visit and see, as they said I have many friends there too (c hing,c mui, c dai......)

Love at first sight

The moment when I first saw you, as the eyes were in contact. I know that you are the one that I loved.
Then from that day onwards, I was being held by all your emotions. You smile, I smile. You cries, I try every effort, if still failed, then I cry. You wet your nappy, I am the one who fix it fast, even forget the nappy is dirty. You cry for hungry, I am the one who feed you immediately. You cry during your sleep in bed, I jump up fast to see you. You just occupy my heart.
I think this is love! Thank Gof for giving me this experience for Love!
That pic is the recent outing to opera house.

I am growing!!

I am now nearly one month old! Weight is gaining (of course not overweight). Mum said my hands/ legs are getting bigger too. Now I sleep less and have some time awake to play with mum & aunt.
I still cry pretty much especially at night time and need to eat 2 times in the middle of the night so mum is working hard. She still try to be patience & calm with me. She said her greatest satisfaction is to see me growing & be happy!

我的名字是......

我爸爸媽媽給我起了一個名字叫陳樂遙。他們說希望我愛神愛人，喜樂滿載我心，溫文謙和，逍遙一生! 雖然我現在不知道什麼是喜樂和逍遙，但爸爸媽媽會一步一步教我! 在我扭計時，他們會給我祈禱和唱詩歌，慢慢我就平靜下來，安然入睡! 看我睡得多甜! (爸媽還未能暢順打中文，今次槍手是阿姨)

my recent photo

Hi

I am siu see mui

I am siu see mui. This is my 10th day on earth. The earth is really beautiful. I have 2 obedient maids. They response quick when I cried, they always kiss my face without my permission but that is comfortable.
Whenever I cried fiercely, they have no method, only saying the Lord's prayer ( Matt 6:9-13), then I will settle a bit, I love the word Ahmen, it is really peaceful.
I learn alot these few days, I can smile, yawn, stretching arms & legs...... The maids said I learn fast & smart.
These days, grrand-mother & Aunt come to visit us and take care of me too. I think I will love this place more & more!

Mission accomplished part I

Without God's protection & guidance, this mission cannot be accomplished!
Without Derek's support & Love, this mission cannot be gone through!
Without all of your prayer support, this mission cannot be done !
Derek & I 's little girl Chloe Chan was born on 22/7/06. The whole process is really not easy and seems too long, as tough as the Exodus ( 40 years).
From very start of pregancy, day by day, there was always new things/ problems coming. Seeing we can gone through with prayer and support is really the grace of God.
Finally on the delivery date, it was really a hard day, somedays at night now I still can clearly recall the pain and the operation which make me sleepless.
I gone through pain, fear, uncontrolled and happiness at only 12 hours. The up & down is really like on roller coaster!
i remember when I was in great pain, the phone calls from HK church brother / sister are really supporting. When BB is in distress, the decision for C/S with those slow Dr was amazing fast. This must be the answered prayer from God.
Even on the operation table, the fear make me shake involuntarily even under epidural, the moment of uncontrol and not knowing what will happen with my BB girl was really frightening. But God protect every things! Chloe finally comes to meet us!
Thank you for all your 40 weeks prayer and support!
Special thanks to my husband "Derek" for his unconditional Love & support (like writing a book)
Of course, without God, all these things will not come true!

Times up!

40 weeks nearly past, due day is on the way. Still wandering when the baby will come? What do I need to prepare? What will be happen...... Too many questions!
Today, we have the Dr's follow up in hospital. Before seeing the Dr, I plan when will be the due day, do I need induction....as I don't want to wait too long.
However, the midwife & the Dr suddenly said they want to induced this Thur night(20/7/06). Derek & I are shocked and do not know how to response. The Dr said the baby is small in size, and there is a large fibroid inside, they don't want to risk the baby to wait so it is better to have her induced earlier. Of course, you know Dr always use techniqical terms and frightening words as you ask them for any side effects or complication for induction. Even though I am working in the medical professions, my tears still cannot control. The fear & uncertainly is really difficult to bear, another case showing we can control nothing.
In review the last 40 weeks, God is with us. He takes care of us, only HE knows what is good for us. Every time when I was in stress or despair, HE is there to guide and comfort. So I still have strong trust in HIM.
When we return home from the hospital, I can see Derek is in stress, he is not prepared to have the induction this week, he would like to seek for 2nd opinion. I understand his worries, but seeing another Dr. will not really make much difference as I still be having the delivery in this hopsital and within this or next week.
We pray together, though still in shock & tears but I feel the calm and peace.
God know I am the kind of person who need to know what is going to happen, being induced I have a exact day and I will have a clear mind. Anyway before seeing the Dr, I plan to induced next week, it is just happen 1 week faster and without our mind preparation. So making us so shock.
Only God knows best. Please pray for us especially for the safety and health of the baby, the smoothness of the whole process and the peaceful mind for Derek.
Hopefully , in next passage, we can see this beautiful little girl.

To be parents?

Recently, friends around me are announcing news for pregnancy, many of them are expecting for the Dog year. ? what trigger the wind for pregancy.
still, some friends of mine told me they are not prepared to have BB (either the husband or wife don't want), it can be any reasons......
I don't really have any comments on whether we should or should not have BB. But I do agree it is a family decision, that means both the husband and wife agree on the decision without regret. Let's share Derek & I 's experience.
When we first get married, we have not plan to have BB, there is no pressure. Always we put work/ friends and new life first. Until 2-3 years, we started to think if we want BB. At that time, Derek did not show any eager, and we are planning to move to Aust or start a business so we concluded that this is not the timing. At that time, we still don't think having BB is a must.
I remembered in one gathering, (Couple fellowship with outside speaker)around 2004, After a prayer, Derek suddenly told me that He has the feeling that it is time we should start to plan a BB. I really shock as I am not prepared and I still have many task to do......I just said keep praying and see as I id not have that feeling.
Finally, when we arrived to Australia, we were start to plan to pray to have BB but every thing were in preliminary stage. Then out of expectation, we have the BB within 1 month. I remembered the first test indicate I was pregnant. I rushed to Derek and we prayed. We knew we were not prepare to be parents yet(even don't know how to be parents)but We felt the calm & peace from God that He will guide us.
Being parents are not only responsility, we always count how many we have or we need to deliver and make us stop thinking having BB.
But I learn from God that it is not what we have or proud of that make us to be his son/ girls. It is really because our insuffiency that make us know the grace of GOD. Same for having a BB is not because we are very responsible and own many things, rather BB is the mean for us to learn to be responsbile and LOVE.
So the couple not yet come to conclusion to have BB or not, then need more pray together. God will show us his way and help us to plan because having BB or not is really not determine only by the husband & wife. I saw many people in Aust go for IVF for having BB still not sucessful and with great distress. So having BB is really a gift from GOD.
About is only my personal opinion.
I have a recent pic, really big & huge (quite like a ball, my waist line now is 42 inches).

Expecting......

This is middle of June, 16/6/06 is my last day at work and I am going to start a long vocation. To me, it is really new experience as I have not have a long holiday since I left school.
I am now 35 weeks, tummy of course is bigger & bigger, getting up & down more difficult, walk very slowly & even short of breath while going up slopes and stairs, that feeling reminded me those days for trail walker.
From pregnant till now is 35 weeks, not really long but just can't wait to see the little BB. Thank for God's protection, everything runs smooth, though still up & down with unexpected illness, we still enjoy every moments.
Yesterday when I was in the office, I thought I am still ok. I can still manage to work for 2 more weeks ( 2 more & 2 more......). But suddenly, I realize that everything has its timing. If God did not allow, I had lost my job since Feb 2006. I would be waiting at home, worrying. But God gave me the chance to work, to explore the life in sydney and to know more people. People (patients) around me were so nice that they care me & BB more than I do. I just can't stop praising God and share with them how good is my God.
Finishing the job, means the start of the new life with BB & Derek. Derek said now I am more like a mum & lose the ambition for work. I think it is just timing. If God provide time & space to allow me to be concentrate as mum, I would do my best & try to enjoy every moment to take care of the family. I still love my career, still thinking when I will return to the work force. But at the meantime, I will concentrate on my family and the new members. Going through the pregnancy made me realize how my mum sacrifice her life to have us. With all those illness in pregancy I realize how she love us. So being pregnant is really a new learning process, everyday has something new to learn.
To all the expecting mum & dad, hope U enjoy every moment & may God be with U all!

Long time no talk

It has been months since last blog updated and suddenly found many new friends on the blog.
Time pass really fast! We have a few changes in these weeks so no time to get to the internet.

1. We move to a new apartment by 25 April 2006, very close to hospital. Thank for church's brother and sister to help for the moving.
2. I start the part-time job (3 times a week) to keep me busy but still time to rest. Actually God know me too well that He has not stop me from working as I will be bored to dead if working nothing. Of course we need to save some more bullets for the future as I may not work for more than 1/2 year to take care the bb. Anyway, Derek urge me to stop the job by the end of May just to get enough rest!
3. Unluckily, I have the initial gestational DM test +ve so need another one to confirm. Also with iron defficiency so look pale and tired. I become to worry about the bb so monior my diet more cautionsly. I know God will protect us so still calm.
4. last week has the parental class, talking about the delivery methods. I am abit nervous. Should I use epidual or not, or to taste the 10 degree pain, or go for operation if I have complication like bb position or DM. Too much to consider!
5. have a great time with Alan & Angel as their visit really remind me the friends in HK.
6. start to pack up the bag and checking bb stuff.
Too much to do, too tired & lazy! that's why so long no udpate!

The dark side

In life, there is always up & down. When we are in the high side, we can easily say good things and praise the Lord. It is often difficult to keep praise the Lord when we face difficulties.
I found myself pregnant which really is a good news to our family even though the timing is not in our plan. Then I suddenly being laid off by my boss in Feb. The world seems turn dark suddenly. No work, no money, no justice, being look down upon because I am pregnant? All these thoughts keep in my mind which make me cry every night. I keep asking why and feel helpless. Even though all friends are on my side, I still feel sad.
At that time, I keep praying God what can I do. Still with complain, I learn fast to submit and obey. I understand that there must be a reason for God to do this though I am too stupid to understand.
By March, just left that company, I have red rash over my bodies which make me start to realize how weak am I. I need rest. At that time, all I want is my baby is ok, I don't mind suffer wtih pain or itchness. God make me realize my body condition is the most important for the baby rather than job.
Later that week, our church planning for buying new place for gathering service. Derek & I wants to particiate for money donation but I have no job. We ask God to provide job for me if HE wants us to participate. At the end of that week, I start the locum job which expand my view and provide me money for donation. I work happily alone in my pace and gain more experience. 1 month passed, the money for this month has not been less, I just cannot believe it.
I want to share is: when I am in the dark, I still not learn to praise the Lord immediately, (That 's why I have not update my blog.) But I do realize that God has not leave us even in the dark, He needs us to be humble and surrender to him so he can do his work.
All I can say is God is really very close and try to teach Derek & I a lesson on how powerful He is!