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Monday, June 26, 2006

To be parents?


Recently, friends around me are announcing news for pregnancy, many of them are expecting for the Dog year. ? what trigger the wind for pregancy.
still, some friends of mine told me they are not prepared to have BB (either the husband or wife don't want), it can be any reasons......
I don't really have any comments on whether we should or should not have BB. But I do agree it is a family decision, that means both the husband and wife agree on the decision without regret. Let's share Derek & I 's experience.
When we first get married, we have not plan to have BB, there is no pressure. Always we put work/ friends and new life first. Until 2-3 years, we started to think if we want BB. At that time, Derek did not show any eager, and we are planning to move to Aust or start a business so we concluded that this is not the timing. At that time, we still don't think having BB is a must.
I remembered in one gathering, (Couple fellowship with outside speaker)around 2004, After a prayer, Derek suddenly told me that He has the feeling that it is time we should start to plan a BB. I really shock as I am not prepared and I still have many task to do......I just said keep praying and see as I id not have that feeling.
Finally, when we arrived to Australia, we were start to plan to pray to have BB but every thing were in preliminary stage. Then out of expectation, we have the BB within 1 month. I remembered the first test indicate I was pregnant. I rushed to Derek and we prayed. We knew we were not prepare to be parents yet(even don't know how to be parents)but We felt the calm & peace from God that He will guide us.
Being parents are not only responsility, we always count how many we have or we need to deliver and make us stop thinking having BB.
But I learn from God that it is not what we have or proud of that make us to be his son/ girls. It is really because our insuffiency that make us know the grace of GOD. Same for having a BB is not because we are very responsible and own many things, rather BB is the mean for us to learn to be responsbile and LOVE.
So the couple not yet come to conclusion to have BB or not, then need more pray together. God will show us his way and help us to plan because having BB or not is really not determine only by the husband & wife. I saw many people in Aust go for IVF for having BB still not sucessful and with great distress. So having BB is really a gift from GOD.
About is only my personal opinion.
I have a recent pic, really big & huge (quite like a ball, my waist line now is 42 inches).

Friday, June 16, 2006

Expecting......


This is middle of June, 16/6/06 is my last day at work and I am going to start a long vocation. To me, it is really new experience as I have not have a long holiday since I left school.
I am now 35 weeks, tummy of course is bigger & bigger, getting up & down more difficult, walk very slowly & even short of breath while going up slopes and stairs, that feeling reminded me those days for trail walker.
From pregnant till now is 35 weeks, not really long but just can't wait to see the little BB. Thank for God's protection, everything runs smooth, though still up & down with unexpected illness, we still enjoy every moments.
Yesterday when I was in the office, I thought I am still ok. I can still manage to work for 2 more weeks ( 2 more & 2 more......). But suddenly, I realize that everything has its timing. If God did not allow, I had lost my job since Feb 2006. I would be waiting at home, worrying. But God gave me the chance to work, to explore the life in sydney and to know more people. People (patients) around me were so nice that they care me & BB more than I do. I just can't stop praising God and share with them how good is my God.
Finishing the job, means the start of the new life with BB & Derek. Derek said now I am more like a mum & lose the ambition for work. I think it is just timing. If God provide time & space to allow me to be concentrate as mum, I would do my best & try to enjoy every moment to take care of the family. I still love my career, still thinking when I will return to the work force. But at the meantime, I will concentrate on my family and the new members. Going through the pregnancy made me realize how my mum sacrifice her life to have us. With all those illness in pregancy I realize how she love us. So being pregnant is really a new learning process, everyday has something new to learn.
To all the expecting mum & dad, hope U enjoy every moment & may God be with U all!