聖誕快樂

聽說有一位聖誕老人會給乖的小朋友送禮物，今年是我第一個聖誕節啊！不知他有否預埋我呢？
但爸媽說他們認識一位更厲害的人物，衪在二千多年前來到世界，將一份寶貴的禮物送給每一個人而且並不分乖或曳，衪名叫 - 耶穌，而聖誕節就是為了紀念衪！
話說回來：我想我是乖，我也希望有禮物啊媽媽！ (我放了袜子在床尾呀！)
在此謹祝大家聖誕快樂 !

運動日

為了明年的新挑戰，爸爸返學，媽媽返工，我們一家三口要積極操fit跑步。爸爸話要有健康體柏才可兼顧返工返學，媽媽則要穿回衣服返工所以要減磅，而我就志在陪吓佢地兼吸新鮮空氣，他們都要我這小小教練鞭擦一下。
相中，爸爸就努力跑緊，媽媽就乘機偷懶陪吓我！

郊遊樂

今天天朗氣清，完了祟拜後和教會的uncles , aunties 一同去Watson Bay 郊遊。藍天白雲加上美麗的海景，爸爸當然又忍不住要影我靚樣和拍全家幅。

平起平坐

我終於可以和爸爸媽媽一同坐在飯枱旁啦！當然，飯枱上的食物冇我份，因我仍然只吃奶奶。其實，這亦是我第一次試坐highchair，因為明天晴晴姐姐(大我半年)會來我家，媽媽負責照顧我倆，所以要我幫手試坐，以確保明天睛晴姐姐坐時安全！我明天要乖D，要不然媽媽要照顧兩个BB定必倒瀉籮蚧！

為父的心

作為媽媽，我真的不完全體會為父的心。 上星期在家聽到廖啓智，陳敏兒及張崇德，劉美娟兩對夫婦對失去兒子的網上信息分享，心裏真的很感動，很配服他們對上帝的信心和順服，縱然身處苦難之中仍能靠着神賜的平安和能力繼續服侍人。 他們不約而同地說更深地明白上帝怎樣犧牲自己兒子耶穌來拯救我們，那種傷痛令他們更能體會上帝的愛。 從前，我只專注於耶穌為我這罪人死的偉大和愛，但他們的分享提醒我上帝這位作父親的要犧牲兒子來救我們，那種更震撼的愛。 再看亞伯拉罕為上帝獻以撒，那種信心和順服足以令我這小信的人汗顏。
現在，做了母親就更明白上帝愛兒女的心，要好好教導我的女兒就必須靠着上帝了。
P.s. 感謝公青團友送來問候的”心”

好熱啊

澳洲已經進入夏天，但因為global warming，天氣反常，時冷時熱，令我未能放下冬衣 (媽媽說多穿幾次會抵D ，哈哈！)。 昨天，初嘗炎夏的滋味，38.4 度啊！熱得我想睡。媽媽則興致勃勃地為我試夏衣，到中午我倆最后都不敵熱風，要開冷氣抖抖。
其實，熱風加速了Blue mountain 的bush fire! 看着很多的樹木和動物被大火摧毀，心裏很不舒服！這是天父世界，一切生物是衪手做，唯有求天父保守止息這場bush fire！

爸爸專家

上星期六日一要上課，一直擔心爸爸單獨照顧遙遙。自遙遙出生後，我倆從未分開多過２小時，這三天朝九晚五的分開，真不由得我不擔心。
一早brief 爸爸 bb 的routine、喜好、哭鬧pattern……再準備好所有奶樽、奶咀、尿片、衣服…….(終於明白作媽媽為何喋喋不休)
第一天分開時，心裏真的不捨，反觀BB 就沒有什麼反應。好不容易等到放學，見到BB 時，她只用眼瞄我一下便自己在後座玩。爸爸說BB 整天也很乖，看來我這個媽媽真的過慮了！爸爸還以專家身份表演怎樣和BB作扒扒運動及引BB大笑，真激死！不過看着爸爸和BB bond 得實也是開心的，起碼有人和我分擔下啦！

HO HO HO

還有一个月才是聖誕節，但滿街也佈滿預備聖誕節的禮物和裝飾。今天就給我發現這個瑞士三角朱古力，就影張相送給阿Tai一家啦！

漫天紫花 2

漫天紫花

澳洲已漸漸步入夏天，亦是花朵盛放的時候。星期二的早上，爸爸心血來潮要去影花，所以我們一家就出動，先去麥記吃个全歺，然後往附近的公園取景。漫天的紫色花樹真的很美！爸爸一向慢功出細貨，要有靚相，就要付代價，媽媽為保護我，就只有努力地對抗撲面而來的澳洲特產 – 烏蠅！

三個月大了

我已三個月大了，比細個時叻了(媽媽是這樣說的)。現在日間少睡了，多了和爸媽玩的時間，我也開始依依呀呀地說話回應他們，逗得他們常對着我大笑。但我面對陌生人時就比較害羞，有時還扁咀啊！爸媽說要多帶我返教會和聚會，好叫我認識更多朋友，看來我有很多機會出去玩了！
(知道業嘉EE和石仔叔叔的小棠出世了，我也開心多了一個朋友仔一同玩啊！希望不會玩到似打大風啦！)

打樁?

自爺爺嫲嫲回港後，遙遙已搬回自己的房間，開始獨立的生活！但作為父母就不放心，於是安裝了baby monitor 等BB 可以召喚我們！遙遙每逢對着monitor 大叫，我便急步往聽候差”顯”。
但昨夜，baby monitor 傳來一下一下的打樁聲，立刻走去察看，發現遙遙已醒了、自轉、並用腳一下一下地踢個monitor。看着她自得其樂，都幾得意。
其實，遙遙很反瞓，雙腳亦很有力，經常踢反睡袋。但昨夜太熱，我沒有為她蓋被子，加上她在自己的床自轉才沒有發生問題。
感謝主，讓我不斷看見衪手所造的人成長的奇妙，更感謝衪給我看見遙遙自轉，叫我小心不可再單獨放她在大床上了。

中秋節

一年容易又中秋！這是我第一个中秋節。沒有月餅(現只吃奶奶)，沒有公眾假期 (我每天也是holiday)，但仍有燈籠！祝大家中秋節快樂。

第一次

以往聽人說做全職媽媽很辛苦又大壓力，是會認同但不等如明白，母親節和媽媽慶祝也有點例牌。
但當了全職媽媽(即C 拉)才兩个月就懷念返工的日子了。不是遙遙不可愛或扭計 (其實她算乖，不然我也沒有時間寫blog)，而是那24小時on call, 無休止的家務、照顧，真的累過返工！試過一整天，那件衣服和一對手也是濕的，洗衣、洗碗、洗地、洗澡……(以為自己是賣魚添(derek 是這樣形容)。現在才真正明白”C 拉”的辛苦，亦更感謝我媽媽！
遙遙昨天打針，晚上就發燒(38.7)，整个人呆呆地想睡，真的嚇得我不知所措。Derek 買了药回來，餵了她，燒慢慢地退，但遙遙就變得扭計，整夜要抱住，看着時鐘又看着探熱針就過了一晚，越來越似熊貓了。幸好，早上遙遙雖然仍有低燒但已精靈一點。這就是遙遙的第一次發燒。
其實未打針前有朋友叫我煮粟米水遙遙喝，只是我擔心遙遙太細不好亂吃東西，現在真的發燒了，連Derek 亦問我為何不煮給遙遙喝！我無言以對，這亦是作媽媽的壓力。
整天說着遙遙，希望沒有悶倒大家吧！

懞面家庭

感冒怪魔侵略地球，全球多个家庭被打敗，紛紛帶上面具！我們這家已徹底被打敗。媽媽剛除下面具、爸爸立即接力帶上，連遙遙亦不幸免。爺爺嫲嫲已回HK，現只剩媽媽獨力迎戰，真的如臨大敵！
遙遙鼻塞，睡不安寧，整夜要抱住，媽媽沒有面具但變成大熊貓！
今個星期五覆診，如遙遙感冒好番，就要打針，所以媽媽不可鬆懈！
知道HK 很多懞面Uncle & Aunt，要多多保重！

懞面媽咪

這兩天媽媽的面孔有些不同，像懞面超人。整天用粉紅色的面具蓋着鼻子和口，莫非和我玩peekapoo！但他的聲音也變了，又常有打乞嗤，經常很累似的！平日，總愛親我，這幾天像刻意保持距離，媽媽你怎麼了？爸爸說她病倒了。
我也開始學乖，平日可在床自己玩一陣，沒有扭計要抱抱。晚上，我雖然很想睡到天明，但肚仔唔爭氣，仍要媽媽餵我！可是我一喝完亦盡快投入夢鄉。
求天父保守媽媽身体快些好番，因下星期我要打防疫針，可能會比較扭計。

一年啦！

時間過得真快！轉眼來澳洲已經一年了。去年9月10日到達，寄居朋友家，一切像重新開始，心裏着實有點彷徨。一年時間，生活適應了，更添了一個家庭成員！
看着這一切，怎能不感謝神！
遙遙亦快滿兩個月，她的臉蛋兒一天一天改變，体重每個星期都有進脹，每天都有不同的驚喜給我！

My fussy periods

不知不覺我己六個星期大了，和媽咪相處雖未至心靈相通，但亦開始互相了解。每當到吃奶的時間，我便十分準時地哭叫。若媽咪未及時滿足我，我便將行動升級，放聲號哭。爸爸說我心急的情格遺傳自媽咪，媽咪說準時是美德！
現在，我有較多的清醒的時間，喜歡發掘四周的環境，但我最愛還是看爸爸媽媽的樣貌！
上星期到健康院檢查，護士給媽咪一份簡介BB 情緒的資料。雷電代表扭計期，太陽代表乖巧期！媽咪看着那份資料，又看看我，似乎這我六個星期並沒有什麼乖巧期。但她說我己有進步，希望太陽快D出來啦！

Mission con'td

40星期過去，第一目標達到。現在才是真正任務的開始！
遙遙滿月了，真不知道這個月是怎樣過！ 只知道每天餵奶、換片、洗澡 、哄睡覺，重覆又重覆，在極度疲倦下度過。但回想，時間過得太快，遙遙長大亦快，真的很懷念每一刻，想時間慢一點 ， 真的芧盾！
原來照顧一個人殊不簡單 (尤其是B B)，當她完全依賴你時，責任重大！ 開奶要試水温，換片要勤快，洗澡有難度，哄睡覺又要温柔和耐性，全天候24小時on call！還有各種特發的事情可供你擔心。 但只要健康成長，對你一笑，就什麼也值得。
這讓我想起神，衪就是一位父親，細心照顧我 一切所需，保守每一步只要我完全依賴衪。衪永不疲累和抱怨！上帝是我學習作父母的榜樣！
(特此鳴謝石仔給遙遙學習中文的機會)

Full moon

Time past fast, I am one month old. I have the full moon dinner with mum/ dad/ grandma and fiona ee.
I gradually adapt to this world though I still only concentrate on eat & sleep. Mum is working hard to observe my need and now we gradually knowing each other better.
Grand-ma & Aunt Fiona has been with us for 3 weeks. Fiona EE teached me bouncing with the big ball and now I still love it very much. Grandma cook good food for mum so I have better nutrition. Now mum has to cook herself (of course the food are much simple). I miss them very much, hope they can come again or I can be back to visit them.
Wendy EE also come to celebrate my full moon & they have a long chat. Mum said it is just like the old days. She missed HK very much.
I don't know how HK is like but would like to have a visit and see, as they said I have many friends there too (c hing,c mui, c dai......)

Love at first sight

The moment when I first saw you, as the eyes were in contact. I know that you are the one that I loved.
Then from that day onwards, I was being held by all your emotions. You smile, I smile. You cries, I try every effort, if still failed, then I cry. You wet your nappy, I am the one who fix it fast, even forget the nappy is dirty. You cry for hungry, I am the one who feed you immediately. You cry during your sleep in bed, I jump up fast to see you. You just occupy my heart.
I think this is love! Thank Gof for giving me this experience for Love!
That pic is the recent outing to opera house.

I am growing!!

I am now nearly one month old! Weight is gaining (of course not overweight). Mum said my hands/ legs are getting bigger too. Now I sleep less and have some time awake to play with mum & aunt.
I still cry pretty much especially at night time and need to eat 2 times in the middle of the night so mum is working hard. She still try to be patience & calm with me. She said her greatest satisfaction is to see me growing & be happy!

我的名字是......

我爸爸媽媽給我起了一個名字叫陳樂遙。他們說希望我愛神愛人，喜樂滿載我心，溫文謙和，逍遙一生! 雖然我現在不知道什麼是喜樂和逍遙，但爸爸媽媽會一步一步教我! 在我扭計時，他們會給我祈禱和唱詩歌，慢慢我就平靜下來，安然入睡! 看我睡得多甜! (爸媽還未能暢順打中文，今次槍手是阿姨)

my recent photo

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I am siu see mui

I am siu see mui. This is my 10th day on earth. The earth is really beautiful. I have 2 obedient maids. They response quick when I cried, they always kiss my face without my permission but that is comfortable.
Whenever I cried fiercely, they have no method, only saying the Lord's prayer ( Matt 6:9-13), then I will settle a bit, I love the word Ahmen, it is really peaceful.
I learn alot these few days, I can smile, yawn, stretching arms & legs...... The maids said I learn fast & smart.
These days, grrand-mother & Aunt come to visit us and take care of me too. I think I will love this place more & more!

Mission accomplished part I

Without God's protection & guidance, this mission cannot be accomplished!
Without Derek's support & Love, this mission cannot be gone through!
Without all of your prayer support, this mission cannot be done !
Derek & I 's little girl Chloe Chan was born on 22/7/06. The whole process is really not easy and seems too long, as tough as the Exodus ( 40 years).
From very start of pregancy, day by day, there was always new things/ problems coming. Seeing we can gone through with prayer and support is really the grace of God.
Finally on the delivery date, it was really a hard day, somedays at night now I still can clearly recall the pain and the operation which make me sleepless.
I gone through pain, fear, uncontrolled and happiness at only 12 hours. The up & down is really like on roller coaster!
i remember when I was in great pain, the phone calls from HK church brother / sister are really supporting. When BB is in distress, the decision for C/S with those slow Dr was amazing fast. This must be the answered prayer from God.
Even on the operation table, the fear make me shake involuntarily even under epidural, the moment of uncontrol and not knowing what will happen with my BB girl was really frightening. But God protect every things! Chloe finally comes to meet us!
Thank you for all your 40 weeks prayer and support!
Special thanks to my husband "Derek" for his unconditional Love & support (like writing a book)
Of course, without God, all these things will not come true!

Times up!

40 weeks nearly past, due day is on the way. Still wandering when the baby will come? What do I need to prepare? What will be happen...... Too many questions!
Today, we have the Dr's follow up in hospital. Before seeing the Dr, I plan when will be the due day, do I need induction....as I don't want to wait too long.
However, the midwife & the Dr suddenly said they want to induced this Thur night(20/7/06). Derek & I are shocked and do not know how to response. The Dr said the baby is small in size, and there is a large fibroid inside, they don't want to risk the baby to wait so it is better to have her induced earlier. Of course, you know Dr always use techniqical terms and frightening words as you ask them for any side effects or complication for induction. Even though I am working in the medical professions, my tears still cannot control. The fear & uncertainly is really difficult to bear, another case showing we can control nothing.
In review the last 40 weeks, God is with us. He takes care of us, only HE knows what is good for us. Every time when I was in stress or despair, HE is there to guide and comfort. So I still have strong trust in HIM.
When we return home from the hospital, I can see Derek is in stress, he is not prepared to have the induction this week, he would like to seek for 2nd opinion. I understand his worries, but seeing another Dr. will not really make much difference as I still be having the delivery in this hopsital and within this or next week.
We pray together, though still in shock & tears but I feel the calm and peace.
God know I am the kind of person who need to know what is going to happen, being induced I have a exact day and I will have a clear mind. Anyway before seeing the Dr, I plan to induced next week, it is just happen 1 week faster and without our mind preparation. So making us so shock.
Only God knows best. Please pray for us especially for the safety and health of the baby, the smoothness of the whole process and the peaceful mind for Derek.
Hopefully , in next passage, we can see this beautiful little girl.

To be parents?

Recently, friends around me are announcing news for pregnancy, many of them are expecting for the Dog year. ? what trigger the wind for pregancy.
still, some friends of mine told me they are not prepared to have BB (either the husband or wife don't want), it can be any reasons......
I don't really have any comments on whether we should or should not have BB. But I do agree it is a family decision, that means both the husband and wife agree on the decision without regret. Let's share Derek & I 's experience.
When we first get married, we have not plan to have BB, there is no pressure. Always we put work/ friends and new life first. Until 2-3 years, we started to think if we want BB. At that time, Derek did not show any eager, and we are planning to move to Aust or start a business so we concluded that this is not the timing. At that time, we still don't think having BB is a must.
I remembered in one gathering, (Couple fellowship with outside speaker)around 2004, After a prayer, Derek suddenly told me that He has the feeling that it is time we should start to plan a BB. I really shock as I am not prepared and I still have many task to do......I just said keep praying and see as I id not have that feeling.
Finally, when we arrived to Australia, we were start to plan to pray to have BB but every thing were in preliminary stage. Then out of expectation, we have the BB within 1 month. I remembered the first test indicate I was pregnant. I rushed to Derek and we prayed. We knew we were not prepare to be parents yet(even don't know how to be parents)but We felt the calm & peace from God that He will guide us.
Being parents are not only responsility, we always count how many we have or we need to deliver and make us stop thinking having BB.
But I learn from God that it is not what we have or proud of that make us to be his son/ girls. It is really because our insuffiency that make us know the grace of GOD. Same for having a BB is not because we are very responsible and own many things, rather BB is the mean for us to learn to be responsbile and LOVE.
So the couple not yet come to conclusion to have BB or not, then need more pray together. God will show us his way and help us to plan because having BB or not is really not determine only by the husband & wife. I saw many people in Aust go for IVF for having BB still not sucessful and with great distress. So having BB is really a gift from GOD.
About is only my personal opinion.
I have a recent pic, really big & huge (quite like a ball, my waist line now is 42 inches).

Expecting......

This is middle of June, 16/6/06 is my last day at work and I am going to start a long vocation. To me, it is really new experience as I have not have a long holiday since I left school.
I am now 35 weeks, tummy of course is bigger & bigger, getting up & down more difficult, walk very slowly & even short of breath while going up slopes and stairs, that feeling reminded me those days for trail walker.
From pregnant till now is 35 weeks, not really long but just can't wait to see the little BB. Thank for God's protection, everything runs smooth, though still up & down with unexpected illness, we still enjoy every moments.
Yesterday when I was in the office, I thought I am still ok. I can still manage to work for 2 more weeks ( 2 more & 2 more......). But suddenly, I realize that everything has its timing. If God did not allow, I had lost my job since Feb 2006. I would be waiting at home, worrying. But God gave me the chance to work, to explore the life in sydney and to know more people. People (patients) around me were so nice that they care me & BB more than I do. I just can't stop praising God and share with them how good is my God.
Finishing the job, means the start of the new life with BB & Derek. Derek said now I am more like a mum & lose the ambition for work. I think it is just timing. If God provide time & space to allow me to be concentrate as mum, I would do my best & try to enjoy every moment to take care of the family. I still love my career, still thinking when I will return to the work force. But at the meantime, I will concentrate on my family and the new members. Going through the pregnancy made me realize how my mum sacrifice her life to have us. With all those illness in pregancy I realize how she love us. So being pregnant is really a new learning process, everyday has something new to learn.
To all the expecting mum & dad, hope U enjoy every moment & may God be with U all!

Long time no talk

It has been months since last blog updated and suddenly found many new friends on the blog.
Time pass really fast! We have a few changes in these weeks so no time to get to the internet.

1. We move to a new apartment by 25 April 2006, very close to hospital. Thank for church's brother and sister to help for the moving.
2. I start the part-time job (3 times a week) to keep me busy but still time to rest. Actually God know me too well that He has not stop me from working as I will be bored to dead if working nothing. Of course we need to save some more bullets for the future as I may not work for more than 1/2 year to take care the bb. Anyway, Derek urge me to stop the job by the end of May just to get enough rest!
3. Unluckily, I have the initial gestational DM test +ve so need another one to confirm. Also with iron defficiency so look pale and tired. I become to worry about the bb so monior my diet more cautionsly. I know God will protect us so still calm.
4. last week has the parental class, talking about the delivery methods. I am abit nervous. Should I use epidual or not, or to taste the 10 degree pain, or go for operation if I have complication like bb position or DM. Too much to consider!
5. have a great time with Alan & Angel as their visit really remind me the friends in HK.
6. start to pack up the bag and checking bb stuff.
Too much to do, too tired & lazy! that's why so long no udpate!

The dark side

In life, there is always up & down. When we are in the high side, we can easily say good things and praise the Lord. It is often difficult to keep praise the Lord when we face difficulties.
I found myself pregnant which really is a good news to our family even though the timing is not in our plan. Then I suddenly being laid off by my boss in Feb. The world seems turn dark suddenly. No work, no money, no justice, being look down upon because I am pregnant? All these thoughts keep in my mind which make me cry every night. I keep asking why and feel helpless. Even though all friends are on my side, I still feel sad.
At that time, I keep praying God what can I do. Still with complain, I learn fast to submit and obey. I understand that there must be a reason for God to do this though I am too stupid to understand.
By March, just left that company, I have red rash over my bodies which make me start to realize how weak am I. I need rest. At that time, all I want is my baby is ok, I don't mind suffer wtih pain or itchness. God make me realize my body condition is the most important for the baby rather than job.
Later that week, our church planning for buying new place for gathering service. Derek & I wants to particiate for money donation but I have no job. We ask God to provide job for me if HE wants us to participate. At the end of that week, I start the locum job which expand my view and provide me money for donation. I work happily alone in my pace and gain more experience. 1 month passed, the money for this month has not been less, I just cannot believe it.
I want to share is: when I am in the dark, I still not learn to praise the Lord immediately, (That 's why I have not update my blog.) But I do realize that God has not leave us even in the dark, He needs us to be humble and surrender to him so he can do his work.
All I can say is God is really very close and try to teach Derek & I a lesson on how powerful He is!

AMAZING GRACE

2005 has pasted. 2006 comes, everything is a new start. How many times do we start to count the grace from God?
Usually at the end of the year,we will try to recall how much God has done for us. But this year , for me is a bit different, I try to recall God's grace everyday and then I found that God is really very, very close.
Last November, I found our myself to be a mother, at that moment, everything is really unreal. It happens too fast, we just come here at Sept. start working, found a place to live and have a car, just the start of new life. We have not even think about how to modified our living style before planning for a baby.
I remember we would like to start a prayer plan first. But God's plan is very accurate, I truely feel what is meant by : before U pray, God know already. This baby is really a miracle to us.
Once I am pregnant, I start to feel out of control, I feel really sick and seems no one understand (as I have not talk to anybody yet). My working place has many things need to be aware, the water class, the electical machine ....... The life style I am having, the food I am eating...... How can I make sure these things are ok for the baby? The insecurity is really very strong. But I realize that only God can help. HE knows us when we are in worm, only HE can know my baby and be with him/her. So every morning, I pray with the baby, as I know God will protect him/ her.
As a mother to be, the identity has changed. Before, I can do what I like to, plan what I want to. But now I need to be responsible for the baby. I cannot do what I like, or eat what I feel good. I start to think it is the kind of love that God give us (unconditioned), HE loves us so HE sacrified. I am glad that I have the chance to experience this kind of love. ( I also thank what my mum have done to me) Though it is a long way to go, but it is also a fruitful and sweet way to go.

Hope this mother to be's inner voice would not be too boring!