Charisse Chan 恩霖

Time flies, it has been a month since I was born. I am full moon la. I did gain weight , now around 3.3 kg which is ok according to the doctors. My face is growing round and round.

My name is finally chosen. It has been a struggle as dad don't want to use the same word as Chloe's chinese name so they have to think it all over. Every parents have their expectation on their kids and is usually reflected from the name they choose. There are different options.

They 2 finally choose Yan lam 恩霖. As during the pregnancy, there were different problems but with God's blessing, we did overcome them. So they want to choose the name for me as to remind them the greatest of God's blessing.
11/3/2011 was the biggest earthquake in Japan, and looking at the scene was alarming and heart broken. We need God's blessing and may God 's 恩blessing like a heavy rain to the world (especially Japan).

For my English name, mum choose Charisse as it means "cherry; grace; dear, beloved" Based on the research from the web,most people would imagine a person with the name Charisse to be: An angelic, caring and kind person. Mum really hope that I can be a"warm-hearted" person.

Our family

Mui Mui is now 20 days la. She is gaining weight and become more alert. She can play for a while but mostly still sleeping. The other thing is she start to cry more at night, hope she will be better as she grows.

Mummy has been busy taking Mui Mui to follow up with hospital and MCH last week, next week will be a break, as they will check Mui Mui again after a week to see how she grows. Things are going on well now, thank God.

We manage to find some time to take family photo.

challenge 1

bruising hands

Mui mui returns home

Just thought that Mui mui is easy to handle, but life is really like riding on a roller coaster.

1/3/01 follow with MCH and said mui mui was a bit yellow and need to get to hospital for further check. I went there found that her NNJ level was still ok and back home. By night time, Mui Mui refused to eat and found very sleepy. We then went to hospital again at mid night.

That night the AED was very full, we really don't know how long we needed to wait. They only allowed me to get into the consultation with Mui Mui that really made me stressful. A tearful mum with a blank brain.

Thank God, within an hour, Mui mui was admitted to special baby care unit. The doctor and nurses there were helpful, they patiently explained to me why Mui mui was not feeding well and result in sleepyness. They tried to feed her though Mui mui refused and vomit. May be we were too stressful, they asked us to get home and rest and they can help to settle Mui mui. Without choice, we left. It was really heartbroken to leave your child in the hospital alone without a diagnosis. Of course, that night with no sleep.

Next morning I went to the hospital with puffy eyes and dark circles. I think I really look like depression and the nurses were kind to me and try to explain to me how to feed Mui mui so she can gain weight quicker. Doctor's investigation found no abnormalities though weight loss that really sooth me.

3/3/11, Mui mui discharge home though feeding still not too well with me, I got her to feed for 1.5 hrs and lots of struggle. Today, we went back to MCH to check her body weight, mui mui has gained some weight and the yellowness has gone down a bit. So I need to work hard on feeding her.

Thanks for all the calls, and prayer. Really, when I am so depressed and tearful ( because of mui mui 's problem, my wound pain and of course the hormones), the only support that I can feel assured was from God, as HE Knows the way and He is the Cure.